The Stan Spike of Regret and Rage

“Absolute zero: (noun) the lowest temperature that is theoretically possible, at which the motion of particles which constitutes heat would be minimal. It is zero on the Kelvin scale, equivalent to -273.15oC.”

—The New Oxford Dictionary of English

SURROUNDED by the five bullies just a few feet off of school grounds, Stan Spike was clearly agitated by their taunts. As for their kicks and punches, however, he inexplicably felt no pain whatsoever. He then verbally assaulted them with insults involving the females in their lives. “As usual, all of you guys—Rick, Danny, Kenneth, Mitch and especially you big, bad ol’ Grant—have me physically outgunned, but all of you also have mothers and sisters and girlfriends who make all of my weekends supremely euphoric! Wow! All of that before-brunch, sweet Sunday morning sex!” Once again, they began beating him. That would be the climactic point at which he’d usually awaken, around six mid-morning, from the nightmares with the five punks from his festering past, still lingering vividly in his mind.

Attempting to lie comfortably on his psychiatrist’s couch, Stan sporadically shifted slightly from side to side while relating significant aspects of his dysfunctional past. As he’d done monthly for over a decade, he emphasized the skewed mentality behind the rearing he’d received as a child before slipping into his bullied teens, then finally his burdensome young adulthood. He related his troubling memories in a nonlinear manner, jumping about his earliest though solidified memories, then back to the present followed by years in between.

Nevertheless, the session foremost revealed formidable consequences resulting from a distorting lack of fatherly trust in him as a young boy, in addition to unjust “blame trips” (Stan’s words). Also revealed was how his bewildering abuse of his adored pet cat created fertile ground for a later-to-come entrenched acute guilt complex, and the unobstructed bullying by five peers during high school resulted in a large accumulation of anger.

Stan’s psychiatrist confirmed that the seed of his problems definitely originated with his father’s unachievable expectations of him as a prepubescent boy; a lad who therefore understandably misinterpreted Dad’s distrust in him as but a consequence of his actual incompetence.

Such matters continued unhindered year after year, especially with a mother mostly intimidated into silence by her husband regarding her own worries over the boy’s future.

As an eleven-year-old sitting on his dad’s fishing boat moored at the local wharf, Stan was particularly annoyed by the sight of another boy two years his junior showing full confidence in him by his trusting father to move their fishing boat around the wharf. The younger boy, the son of Stan’s dad’s closest friend, confidently competently handled the steering wheel, forward/reverse gears and throttle, all as he himself deemed fit. Not surprising, Stan took the demonstration as yet another bitter pill handed him by his overly anxious father.

“It really made me angry—even embarrassed,” Stan told his psychiatrist.

“My dad never ever would’ve allowed me to handle his boat in any way even close to … to the way that kid was … ,” he choked out, barely maintaining his composure.

“Just the concept, alone, of placing such trust in me probably made him nervous. Damn! … I now see with clear hindsight that Dad never consciously meant me any psychological harm and that he would’ve done things differently if allowed to relive it all. But even so, I’m still left extremely frustrated and angered by it all, and that’s putting it mildly … Considering the trust and authority placed into that kid’s mind by his mentally sound father, I’d bet the kid went on to accomplish great things in his life. But my father seemed to actually anticipate that, if allowed to handle his boat—or anything else requiring competence, for that matter—I’d surely screw up or at least require urgent intervention by him. ‘No, no—you do it this way.’ And having been told so and treated as such enough times for enough years, I started mistrusting my own self! No wonder my brother completely avoided Dad’s presence all those years, and that I’ve essentially been rendered unemployable for lack of belief in myself.  In retrospect, I’m not at all surprised that I spent so much of my life in my room, alone, reading a bunch of books!”

Most disturbing, however, Stan had also developed a problematic contempt for himself.

Also, through his father’s thorough verbalization of his inflexible perception of persecution committed against him allegedly by various powerful and corruptible societal institutions, Stan developed his own version of just such a persecution complex.

The boy’s susceptible malleable mind had readily absorbed over a prolonged period the poisonous persecution paranoia, amongst the other said dysfunctional thought patterns, like a dry sponge squeezed tightly then released while submerged in filthy bathwater.

Although to Stan the hours of his troubled life seemed to wearily drag on, eventually arrived the time for his anxiety-ridden entrance into high school. The frequently malicious environment there consisted of regular doses of nasty attention focused upon him—a disproportionately large share originating from a group of five male peers who could smell his fear and low self-confidence two hallway lengths downwind from him.

As of his first day of Grade 8, Stan endured two school years of hell before dropping out and entering a GED-equivalence program, though the two years were reduced by fifty percent. That time absent was spent “skipping out” at his sanctuary, SeaTac International Airport by way of public transit. There, he greatly appreciated the much needed peace of mind he received while fantasizing about flying somewhere, a great distance away, preferably the Orient; high school on home turf had simply become that unbearable for him.

Even when Grade 9’s end did finally arrive, it was to Stan a tall hurdle over which he’d barely leapt but only to find an obstructive rocky road for his trek into indefinite-length future territory. That past high-school ordeal would permanently remain a notable dysfunctional future factor; yet it was burdensome baggage of which ‘normal’ guys would’ve just let go no later than graduation.

More worrisome, it was baggage packed to the hilt with acrimonious resentment and even sporadic rage that often was inwardly focused; and it was more than enough to expand into an over-compensative aggressive attitude. Put another way, Stan maintained a mental scores-to-settle list, with the five high-school bullies at it very top.

When Stan was fifteen, his father was devastated by the terrible loss of his fellow fisherman and closest friend of twelve years. He drowned after the pair’s respective vessels capsized off the coast of Washington State when hit by an exceptionally large wave while fishing in stormy weather.

As though the bleak depression compounded by survivor’s guilt wasn’t more than enough to handle already, he also learned that his boat insurance had been voided just six days prior to the sinking because of a freak-occurrence lost check in the mail. Such fluke bad luck was what pushed him over the psychological edge, Stan, his mom and older brother Daniel were told by a psychiatrist upon the emotionally distraught man being involuntarily admitted to the hospital psychiatric ward.

Barely three weeks later, Stan’s mom received a telephone call a few minutes before nine at night in which another psychiatrist informed her that her husband had taken his own life. He’d accessed a janitor’s incompetently misplaced keychain, which included two keys unusually thin enough to fit into the janitorial supply room’s sole electric socket. However, it was shortly later verified that the severely despondent man had actually futilely attempted to poison himself, since a small quantity of toxic cleaning agent was discovered in vomit found in the same supply room … Following the funeral, Stan and his mom promptly moved away from their hometown in the greater Portland region and into a metro Seattle apartment complex. Daniel, on the other hand, kept moving northwards to live with his soon-to-be fiancé residing in Penticton, British Columbia.

EIGHT years had lapsed before Stan accepted the embarrassingly difficult concept of him being unemployable, not even able to competently perform his rudimentary part-time carpentry job. His psychiatrist at that time had agreed enough with his previous doctor’s diagnosis to promptly have him placed onto a government disability pension plan.

He gave much of the credit for that fact to one venomous employer who had verbally and emotionally mauled him for his “fuck ups” at work. That same employer had once asked him whether he’d eventually go on to “blow your brains out” once fully realizing his supposed uselessness to normal laboring society; and when he in bewilderment asked the boss to repeat the question, the same callous words were said.

As his condition but worsened with passing months, Stan regularly focused his accumulating anger upon people he perceived were doing him injustice. Reaching a point of wound-up fury, he began sending nasty letters, which soon metastasized into blatantly insulting, to editors with the two Seattle metro-daily newspapers.

After a few months of one-way abrasive correspondence, he’d tagged six specific junior editors (amongst the two dozen with the newspapers) at whom he was particularly enraged, even letting each know that he was “savvy to your corrupting what should be purely objective journalism.”

At times becoming near ceaseless, his rage also took a twist towards unpredictability and even hair-trigger disposition, effectively resulting in increased frequency of the virulent letters to those same six editors. As even he anticipated, Stan managed to get himself permanently banned from the two newspapers’ Opinion pages. Thus he then became even more enraged by them and their “corporate-owned news-media corruption by way of your insidious manipulation of public opinion.”

Regardless, he let it be known (via final sarcastic email) to those six editors whom he’d targeted as his scapegoats, “that permanently blacklisting me officially under the table won’t silence my opinions sent elsewhere … Proof of the conflicts of interest and therefor corruption is that all editors refuse to publish which corporate entities own the majority of their respective newspapers’ shares. Why? Could it be, perhaps, to maintain an ‘out of sight, out of mind’ kind of ignorance amongst their collective readerships? Or, perhaps, If there’s no tree even falling in the woodslet alone anyone there to hear itit definitely does not make any sound? Or even, ‘No message is the new medium’?”

As a person with no recorded history whatsoever of any past criminal conviction or even simple public misconduct, it absolutely was from him an unprecedented infuriated-outburst behavior.

His perception of persecution by the said editors caused him psychological turmoil and even social-norm disharmony; yet it wasn’t a case of him failing to attempt filtering out the irrational assumptions from his mind. He found that no matter how often and hard he tried to put logic well ahead of his hasty hot temper, he simply could not calm any of the rage, nor even maintain in mind the line quoted by his favorite prolific author, Jonathon Swift: “It is useless to attempt to reason a man out of a thing he was never reasoned into.”

The accumulation of intense frustration, anger, then outright rage with which he’d poorly dealt for most of his life, finally profoundly peaked on the same Wednesday as happened to be both his own birthday as well as the anniversary of his last day of Grade 9 a decade prior.

Shortly after three that afternoon, Stan stood before his dresser mirror feeling helpless to at all interrupt the heavily momentous flow of negative thoughts, misperceptions and violently uncontrollable anger directed towards the six editors whom he’d mentally targeted. Following close behind this tumultuous emotional cocktail of venomous contempt was a sudden psychological climax event that academics would later refer to as “the Stan spike of regret and rage.”

Fuelled by both actual and erroneously perceived significant injustices committed against him by the many named on his long mental list of offenders, his mind was pulled (or pulled itself) deep within his self-created concentrated subconscious intent on enforcing upon others a violent vengeance.

UNTIL becoming cognizant of the fact, Stan had unwittingly stood on the very same spot for almost half an hour, though to him it was a complete timeless blank, before the same dresser mirror. With his mind liberated of all dysfunctional thought, he could for the first time in recollection enjoy an absolute absence of the wildly ugly emotions as well as a zero presence of all negative notions he’d unrelentingly endured prior to that unconsciousness. In addition, he felt an inexplicable strange yet strong sense of resolution—of unequivocal completion.

The following three days of unmitigated clear-mindedness was wholly revitalizing, for the mental relief was so much noticeable in contrast to the years of torment. But it was then succeeded by a stunning breaking story on the local morning TV newscast.

The news was exceedingly bizarre, mindboggling, and quite unique in its horrendousness.

While all six editors, whom to Stan were abusing their profession, had been individually reported missing as of the Wednesday before, discovered just hours prior to the newscast inside each one’s residence or workplace office was unidentifiable dense, discolored liquid (on linoleum flooring or soaked into upholstery, mattresses, carpeting, etcetera) on top of which lay skeletal remains and wet clothing.

In conclusion the news report noted that, “Health authorities will be performing forensic testing this afternoon to both verify the source of the DNA samples already taken from each location while also ensuring that the bio-matter discovered doesn’t indicate a public health hazard.”

Who’s really going to take seriously the insane notion of people turning into funny looking puddles of fluid and skeleton? Stan tried convincing himself with consoling thought. Meanwhile, rather than at all subsiding, his unnerving mysterious sense of resolution and completion lingered on irrepressibly. Ahhhhumbug.

Regardless of the top story’s nonsensical nature, he watched the news channel all morning, afternoon and evening, with only washroom and three snack breaks.

The next morning’s top news-story broadcasted that, “Extensive forensic testing, most notably that of extracted DNA samples, has been performed on what had been deemed as six individual discoveries at a residence or workplace of dense, discolored liquid upon which lay skeletal remains and wet clothing. According to investigative officials, the grisly discoveries are in fact entirely that of human content and have been confirmed to be those of the six men and women, all editors at Seattle’s two metro-daily newspapers, earlier reported missing,” the newscaster stated before clearing his throat.

“Furthermore, it has also been verified that the element makeup of the bio-matter discovered at each of the six locations was in precise proportion to such composition percentages factually found in the human body—nothing whatsoever was missing or added, after taking into account evaporation extrapolation.”

As for how the victims discovered in such an unprecedented state and in separate locations actually became so, even the planet’s most brilliant minds in the fields of physics and human forensic biology were left baffled.

The huge news to date had been sufficiently disturbing for him without the addition of the following morning’s update story. It revealed that, “Utilizing the latest in forensic technology, analysts have ‘positively determined’ that the six victims’ mostly liquefied bodily remains discovered three days ago had ‘melted’ into such a state from an ‘unprecedented near absolute zero’ frozen form. It’s believed to be the lowest temperature found in the physical universe, in deep space. But most perplexing were the bone-core test findings strongly indicating that the victims had been frozen from their very most inside, outwards.”

By the fourth day, Stan was bordering on the commencement of a complete nervous breakdown. What began as mostly a misinterpreted local freak occurrence had been gobbled up whole by every major national and international news outlet. Eagerly reported that morning was the latest bewildering story revealing that the sole cryonics facility equipped with state-of-the-art extreme-deep-freezing technology was situated considerably southwards in Sacramento. But even at that, a Weekly Telegraph story quoted one of the facility’s senior staff as asserting, “We are not in the business of cryogenic extremes anywhere even near -273.15oC or ‘absolute zero’. According to our own technological means—and I’m certain we’ve accessed the latest in ultimate deepfreeze equipment—‘absolute zero’ very much remains a theoretical concept.”

It was then that Stan experienced the most intense sensation yet, one that mentally linked him to the dreadful frozen finality suffered by the six victims.

I’ve got to get this all, get me, checked out right away! he finally decided after much hesitation ever since first learning of the unfortunate grim discovery. And I must tell Cynthia everything, or I’ll get nowhere.

Or so Stan had intended.

Regardless of utilizing the most of her psychic ability, she unwittingly was only able to sense from Stan just enough for him—but not herself—to realize that he was in fact responsible for the half-dozen horrific deaths.

Cynthia resided in the apartment unit immediately adjacent to that of Stan. She offered free, no-strings-attached ESP readings as a psychic to any interested person residing anywhere within the complex. Everyone who accepted her offer was left impressed at her psychical talents, moral conviction and generosity of spirit, for she steadfastly refused any payment in any amount or form (including “donations”).

“Payment corrupts the gift—the ability, the talent, the entire ‘art’ involved with it,” she emphatically proclaimed to all who questioned her lack of capitalist entrepreneurship regarding such a seemingly rare, precious and quite sellable commodity.

Regardless of his great appreciation of Cynthia’s gift and her friendship, Stan didn’t appreciate it when, following a reading that she did for him and his mom, he noticed Cynthia holding back something important about his birth—and at the current peak crisis point in his life, he especially feels that she should’ve told him, or at least Mom, post haste.

But that was water under the bridge, and he immediately phoned her to ask, “if I can stop by for a reading at your place tomorrow, around noon?”

Being a low-maintenance type person like Stan, Cynthia subsisted on a far-below poverty-line government disability pension, though her disability was entirely physical in nature. Even so, she always answered the door extravagantly dressed, “but mostly for full comfort while at home.”

Having dejectedly entered his apartment unit, he willfully let the door slam shut behind him due to the overwhelming guilt he was carrying upon his conscience combined with anger at himself for the enormous suffering he’d caused by way of his apparent “psycho-kinesis.”

A chunk of bitter irony then hit Stan, hard. He recalled how so many times as a boy that he’d fantasized about how “great it would be to do things with my mind, my thoughts—throw around bad guys, or even make their heads pop.” But as he matured, and especially during the previous week, the wise but commonly overlooked (or perhaps more accurate, misunderstood) expression more frequently, in proportion to his aging, came to mind: “Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.”

Cynthia lay comfortably on her large leather couch while reading Pride and Prejudice. She didn’t own a TV or radio, nor did she at all consume newspaper content because “their distortions of reality really depress me,” she’d say to Stan. Turning the page of her novel, Cynthia experienced an unusual, perturbing sensation of fear, far worse than any she’d felt during her entire life; one of devastation that involved only Stan. However, she was left frustrated by her inability to specifically, psychically define that sensation thus placing a hindrance on a significant aspect of her psychic ability.

What she’d always known and therefore often warned Stan about was that his periods of fervently enraged state of mind would always make for hazardous decision making.

Having spent much of his life reading books, such as his favourites Plato’s Republic, Moby Dick and Gulliver’s Travels, Stan replied to Cynthia’s caution, “I think that’s what’s meant by the famous proverb, ‘Vengeance is a dish best served cold.’ And I’m sure that Art of War’s Sun Tzu would agree that one must be sure to make crucial decisions only after taking enough time to thoroughly consider the best response and while remaining void of heated passion. Translation: humans do stupid things when we act out of anger.”

Nonetheless, he would go on to serve extremely bitter cold dishes of vengeance, though doing so while steaming hot with fury.

He found that as his rage subsided, his great guilt was exacerbated to an inversely proportional degree thus adding even more burden to his anomalous guilt complex. Those targets against whom he’d been so uncontrollably infuriated had viciously lost their lives as a direct result, a fact that made him sick to his stomach with every full realization of his editor deepfreeze, regardless of his subconsciously unaware mental state …

Finally came the point when Stan felt it crucial that he immediately leave Seattle for his brother’s cabin up at Rivers Inlet, B.C., by float plane. There, to his immense comfort, would be virtually no people, therefore all but zero chance of being any threat to anyone.

“I’ll simply be too far away from any civilization while I’m up there to do any harm,” he said to Cynthia with noticeable relief on the same day that he left Seattle. He even politely refused her request that he take with him an emergency two-way radio as a risk-free precaution.

“I understand that you want this great physical separation from city life, but why not be in radio contact if an emergency should … ”

“No,” he mildly interrupted, “I’m going it all alone, which also excludes voice transmission contact. Sorry, Cynthia.”

When Stan and his brother were in their early twenties, Daniel would take him on strenuous hikes to Rivers Inlet, with their launch point being Daniel’s fiancé’s Penticton residence. Each hike would take six to eight weeks, during which the older taught the younger Stan everything he needed to know to survive (or “reside,” as Daniel put it), such relative desolation as Rivers Inlet.

To be fully clear, regardless of whether snow lay on the ground, the Inlet was known for its hard-biting cold-climate winter seasons, typically extending from early November until late February.

STAN spent an uninterrupted solitary six years, one month, three weeks and four days at Rivers Inlet before receiving his first human visitation—that of Daniel. Any visit had to be one of surprise, there being no mail or telephone service through which to forewarn of any planned arrival.

Having arrived with all of the supplies and gratuities (e.g. chocolate) that he could muster the will and body strength to haul, Daniel relaxed and conversed with his protractedly secluded brother right after giving him a firm hug.

“It’s all just for your comfort, little brother, ’cause everything you really need to live in this beauty is already here, out there, in this glorious wilderness!” he jovially proclaimed.

Life at Rivers Inlet was pretty good to Stan, until he was stricken with increasingly chronic depression. Unfortunately, any degree of mental illness, let alone such severe cases as his, was inadequately treated in such a desolated region because of the predictably great lack of sufficient number of mental health professionals; thus, he soon was forced to return to a life of potentially lethal emotional upheaval.

Immediately upon his return to Seattle, he already found himself feeling fully reloaded with formidable guilt branching outward in multiple directions, all complicated by self-loathing and accumulating anger. Thus he felt more than compelled to see Cynthia.

“It’s great to see you, as always, Stanley.” Her greeting included a platonic yet amicable hug, which he comfortably reciprocated. Then, immediately upon looking him straight into his slightly smiling face, she noted, “There’s something seriously troubling you, dear; I can feel it. Let’s sit down.”

She led the way to her oddly small kitchen table. As was her usual psychic means, she held both hands while looking deep into his eyes, though he atypically shied away, instead looking aside while slowly pulling back his hands.

Regardless, Cynthia was in physical contact long enough to know his emotional anguish, although not its direct source.

“Oh, Lord, something is greatly wrong. A lot of … too much guilt, isn’t there?” she noted. “Please, Stanley, give me your hands, and please don’t look away; don’t allow any part of your mind to silence the rest. I know that you’ve come to me desperately seeking help, so don’t hold anything back … Oh, Lord, your aura, dear—it’s an absolute mess of what should be mostly orderly light colors, if one’s at peace with one’s self.”

“Yeah, things seem to be bad, very bad,” Stan finally admitted. “I really fear doing something most extreme, possibly the worst.”

Wiping away a few tears, he then covered his face before revealing his mind’s exhaustion and bleak outlook on life.

“It’s like a lose/lose scenario. Either I go mad and kill myself or else end up doing something horrendous to others. I just don’t know what I should do about it.”

Slowly removing his hands from his face, Cynthia assured Stan, “You’re not going mad, and you’re not a bad person. Always keep that firmly in your heart and mind. You were born with a very rare ability, telekinesis; although, unlike my psychical ability, yours took more time to turn itself on. Also, yours is far more energetic, forceful, requiring much discipline; and for you, it definitely means adapting far more self-control over your mental and emotional state of … ”

Stopping herself midsentence, she could feel her psychic instinct increasingly indicating to her that she was actually misreading him regarding the exact nature of his kinetic ability.

Stanley, are you absolutely sure there’s nothing that you’re not mentioning, maybe something you’re overlooking, like some telekinetic event you’ve recently experienced? Perhaps something you feel is minute in significance? Anything at all?”

“Well,” he hesitantly began, “I believe I may’ve … ”

Cynthia then decisively took the initiative to invasively confirm that she wasn’t misreading Stan.

“Please, give me your hands once again … Please, dear, it’s very important.”

Less than a minute later, she’d finally grasped it, or at least most of it. Stan wasn’t just talented in telekinesis; he was in fact born with latent pyro-kinesis. Furthermore, and greatly worrisome, she clearly read that he had viciously mortally assaulted people, though without his conscious will.

Upon hearing and considering her diagnosis, he was left bewildered by such a notion, that of him possessing a pyro-kinetic inclination of all things. Such an ability within him was without a hint of evidence—even quite the contrary, he mused, when reflecting upon the fire-storm kinesis of the little girl in Firestarter.

“But the experts said that the victims had been frozen to the coldest temperature possible,” Stan emphasized. “So, how can I have a pyro-kinetic ability? If anything, I would’ve thought that I’d actually be the exact opposite of the fire-starting kid in that movie—don’t you think?”

“What do you mean, frozen victims? What are you talking about, Stanley?” she nervously queried of him.

But before he could reply, her eyes had already widened with wisdom. His last words had left her with a facial expression of total revelation, followed by one of fine satisfaction.

When Stan and his mother moved into the apartment complex almost sixteen years before, it didn’t take long for Cynthia to become privately psychically aware of the boy’s dysfunctional rearing and social history. Soon she had attained the knowledge via her ESP that, quite unfortunate for all closely involved, his father had received the same severely flawed rearing, thus distorted thought patterns, during his own childhood in WWII-era Europe. Furthermore, although she knew naught about how far back the dysfunctional rearing reached in Stan’s paternal side of the family tree, she nevertheless did in fact sense that his (long dead) paternal grandfather was strongly telepathic.

All placed together, she’d always feared, it could translate into a young-adult Stan with an active wild-storm telekinetic ability. But what she’d failed to add to the equation was his hopelessly entrenched guilt complex—one involving a large quantity of an emotion very different from, and perhaps even directly opposite to, the rage that was so intrinsically a part of him. The unprecedented result was a total transformation of the fire-energy-conducive infuriated emotions requisite for a pyro-kinetic event to occur.

Combing his fingers through his hair, again did tears trickle down his cheeks.

“Stanley? Stanley, look at me,” Cynthia said, slowly lifting his face up towards hers. “We, together, can work on controlling this … this great burden, which you’re only making much worse by hating yourself for it. I will help you help yourself, dear, no matter what; but first you have to allow me to do so by not at all resisting.”

But Stan was not in any ‘problem solving’ orientated state of mind; he felt that rigidly skeptical.

“I don’t think so,” he replied, slowly freeing his face of her hands. “I’m really drained right now. I’m going to bed for a few hours. I’ll see you later, Cynthia, and I really do appreciate all that you’ve done for me.”

As he left her apartment unit for his, she experienced an awful fright—the worst she’d felt in memory—involving dread and deep sorrow. Furthermore, although convinced that what she sensed had to do with Stan alone, she again failed to discern precisely what concerned her so about him.

Oh Lord, please help Stanley, Cynthia prayed from deep within. He needs you now more than ever; please have your angels watch over him during this terribly tormented time he’s barely enduring. I fear that he’s not willing to suffer it for much longer.

Laying on his bed, he closed his eyes and immediately commenced his typical habitual examination of almost every concept that raced through his weary mind.

I don’t deserve to live in peace after what I’ve done with six lives that weren’t mine to fuck with.

He considered the many cases throughout his life in which he’d committed malicious acts strangely while not feeling any actual malice behind those regretful acts.

How in hell could’ve I done all those terrible things? It’s as though it wasn’t even me doing them.

Then surfaced the worst memories of all, seemingly to haunt him for yet a ten-thousandth time, with the most bitter unfortunately involving a cherished past pet cat. Much beloved by Stan’s family of three, the pet was tragically lost to a coyote attack indirectly due to Stan’s misconduct—or so he firmly believed while unforgivingly flogging his own conscience ever since the terrible loss.

More so, he’d unfailingly frequently give his mind a figurative smack by reminding himself that the lost pet, as a non-human animal, by its very nature was, unlike the intellectually superior human animal, incapable of committing acts of malice for the sake of malice. Thus he felt all the more deserving of psychological self-razing.

To even further worsen his brittle mental condition, he refused to allow himself any relief over his verbal mistreatment of his mother during her last day alive. Her instant death at age fifty-three caused by a drunk driver—life’s greatest blast against him from which he’d never recovered—occurred sixty-nine hours after he’d lost his temper with her, resulting in an albeit very rare hostile verbal exchange.

He then allowed a radical hundred-and-eighty-degree flip-flop concept to overtake him and completely turn around his existential perspective on his seriously counter-productive grudges—indeed, great irrationality that had for so long been to him logical notions: The six dead editors didn’t deserve the cruel cryo-kinetic dish they’d been served; rather, the receiving end of his fury should’ve been reserved but for him alone in lieu of every offense he’d committed (or at least perceived by him as having done so) during his lifetime.

Nor was such punishment deserved by the five school-peer punks who’d tormented him a couple decades prior—all of whom, unwittingly to him, had incidentally all grown to become mature, considerate young adults.

As such, Stan resolutely decided that he, himself should become his next and last focus of his own cryo-kinetic curse.

Deep down he ‘knew’ that he deserved such a terrible fate, for whenever he’d reflect upon his life, he saw how much wrong he’d done and greatly resented himself for it all. Thus, on that afternoon, he reached a deadly dismal zenith.

His unrelenting guilt and rage combined to create an overriding absolute-zero deep-freeze kinetic event in place of the emblazoned event that would’ve otherwise been produced by his congenital pyro-kinesis.

It was at that point of his overpowering emotional inner-conflict that the Stan spike of regret and rage engaged within his subconscious kinetically-enabled mind.

Thus commenced the cryo-kinetic event deep within himself—psychologically as well as physically—and knowing that he was the sole focus target of his own cursed-event creation, he was allowed the greatest yet too brief comfort that he’d enjoyed in memory.

Experiencing a deep chill from within, Stan suffered a piercing pea-sized source of the greatest cold ever originating from the center of his lower abdomen. Soon following at a rate of an inch every dozen seconds was the full vicious effect of excruciating freeze gradually expanding in every direction. Within ninety seconds, the agony of burning-severe frostbite began to dissipate as it was replaced with total dumbing numbness; and momentarily after, however, there was no sensation whatsoever, as though his entire nervous system had shut off.

And I deserve every last morsel, he censured himself. Every single last blast of absolute zero.

With the last of his outermost flesh solidified rock hard, what remained of him was but an extreme-deep-freeze sculpture form of his prior warm-blooded self; with jawbone joints frozen tight and teeth ice-welded together as his stiffened lifeless-grey lips seemed to futilely attempt a last grin.

As with each of his victims, it took about sixty-two hours (during a hot and humid week of late summer) for Stan’s absolutely fully-frozen ice-form to melt, liquefying into a dense, discolored total uselessness absorbed into his mattress, leaving naught solid behind except damp cloth and skeletal remains.

WHEN his written journal (which he maintained daily since his tenth birthday) was discovered and analyzed, the full utilization of its information and insights for the benefit of mental health research and knowledge by Washington State University’s psychology department was officially permitted by his brother.

Although any mention of a parapsychological link to Stan’s formidable struggles during his young adulthood was suppressed, his case was thoroughly studied and the findings were tastefully integrated into a briefly bestselling anthology of condensed biographies involving such troubled souls as himself.

On the other hand, Cynthia steadfastly refused to remain silent on the typically-hushed topic of his psychical ability, specifically his unique form of kinesis; but even so, the vast majority of what she wanted to share with the public at large involving his special talent was never published through any means of media that were taken seriously by mainstream consumers.

Perhaps out of plain frustration, every time she brought up the “scientifically unexplainable borderline absolute zero” extreme-deep-freeze deaths when talking to skeptical media, especially those who implicitly mocked her assertions, she’d always respond with the same rhetorical question.

“Why are so very many well-educated people so incredibly closed minded to parapsychological phenomenon? Maybe they’re simply too smart to understand?”

[Frank G Sterle Jr, originally written in 2014]

Congratulations! Nobody Will Be Pregnant for a Very Long Time

At the time, most Earth folk would have admitted that their planet, specifically its wholly contaminated eco-system and grotesquely massive overpopulation, was extremely befouled. Not at all surprising, the ethically and morally corrupt societal standards significantly abused the most basic of human rights, and the political realm as well as its adjoined bureaucracy were just as debased as the planet’s life-sustaining environment.

Even as dire the global survivability situation indeed was, the planet’s collectively actively procreative human race was still not adequately concerned in order to actively rectify their extremely messed up world.

The planet’s people weren’t even prepared to noticeably remedy their malicious behavior—towards one another and in particular to helpless animals, both wild and domesticated—let alone to proactively halt their blatant abuse of their own world, Spaceship Earth.

As for their rapid gross over-population humanity’s dangerous reactionary response was, “But why should any of us deny ourselves the right to have families of our own?” As a whole, humanity simply was not willing to constrain its rate of reproductivity. Such constraint would plainly have to be forced upon the entire populace.

Inevitably precisely such was indeed forced upon all fertile people; and ironically it was enforced by the human race itself—albeit highly advanced and vastly evolved ‘humans’ from thirty-five million years into their own future (in the present commonly referred to as greys.)

In every timeline the greys sent many of their evolved-human kind back into their distant past, to the very beginning of the third millennium A.D. on Earth, to temporarily sterilize every fertile human being on the planet, for a three thousand year period.

It was not as though procreative-minded adults, however much they loved children, are performing any favors or charitable acts whatsoever by bringing sentient offspring into a world that’s so prone to great suffering. In actuality, it is the most selfish act in the purely natural sphere of human existence, though admittedly one involving the propagation of the human species and even more so the instinctual compulsion to continue one’s own genetic lineage.

But to be thorough and fair in regards to this most profound aspect of the human equation, it is with irony that simultaneously it is also a parent’s most selfless long-term act to responsibly functionally rear his or her offspring, especially in such difficult socially dysfunctional surroundings.

With the sterilization fully implemented the infertile status remained so until the planet’s life forms and ecology, in their entirety without any exception, eventually fully revived and thoroughly thrived as a truly living planet, again.

To allow human procreation to continue unabated at its current stubbornly high rate—especially in the poorest undeveloped, and even developing, regions of the globe—would translate into yet even far greater suffering than that already dreadfully endured.

Irregardless of mass human protests, the greys’ proclaimed inability to freely answer the most troubling three-part question—‘Why is it so vital to cease without a single exception all natural human procreation, at this specific point in time and for three thousand years to come?’—couldn’t be allowed to act as a hindrance to their plan immediately moving forward; otherwise, in only about two centuries the near extinction of the human race was an imminent inevitability.

To do otherwise, the greys strongly implied, “would disable the refreshing process.”

The end to the prevailing toxification within both human nature and your dying home, your entire world, will only begin with the purification of new human life, the greys telepathically communicated. That is all we can say.

Along the millions of years towards their own present day, the greys had discovered not only how to fold space thus enabling them to travel vast stellar distances in but a few moments’ time, yet also the means of folding time itself thus breaking the temporal barrier in either arrow’s-time direction.

It resultantly would require them to travel a meager five thousand miles distance from the surface of Earth, their home planet, in order to safely fold time. Doing so enabled them to access what year-2015 physicists referred to as the fourth dimension—which the greys learned it in fact was, albeit in a somewhat different context than that theorized by their distant predecessor scientists—without inadvertently yet nonetheless disastrously creating a paradox in a temporal causality loop.

Upon their arrival into the distant past the greys calmly rationally explained via telepathy to humanity its great predicament and provided evidence of impending dire outcomes, all culminating in a final major almost-successful near-extinction. They then without physical forcefulness, though in secret, genetically contaminated all sources of drinking water on the planet, the effect of which immediately rendered sterile all human sperm and ovum within three months.

There was another large question yet to be answered for the humans, however. “But with no new human life, who’ll perform all of the ‘detoxifying’ along with other crucial immense changes to humanity and our eco-systems, etcetera?” a high-level United Nations official queried the greys.

The greys mentally explained that, Utilizing the plentiful supply of fertile sperm and ovum already in refrigeration at fertility clinics around the globe human newborns will be prudently reproduced through artificial conception and gestation. During artificial gestation the fetus will be genetically enhanced in order to, most notably, advance their intellectual abilities; although, they will be just as ‘adorable’ as they have always been in humanity’s past and present as well as in the distant future—and in so many cases of such artificial procreation, even more so ‘adorable’ than ever before. As infants they can be nurtured by their biological parent-donors, whom we can rapidly identify through clinic records and DNA sequencing. If the infants’ parent-donors desire no involvement in their artificially procreated offspring we will quite willingly perform the entire nurturing process and with anticipated successful outcomes. All said and done, the resultant children of light will be the ones who will save you and your once-pristine planet.

For what it was worth to current humanity, the greys promised to prove that they’d long ago exceeded the medical and scientific means to reliably change an otherwise near-extinction inevitability into what was in the peaceable best interests of all involved. They sincerely reassured 2015 AD humanity that in three thousand years humanity and Earth will be remade to exist as both were always meant to exist; they will be refreshed in the most profound and prolifically progressive aspect of the term.

But even with our vast advancements in medicine and science, the greys again communicated, we still cannot avoid the necessity of temporarily sterilizing the human race—you, as we once were—for a relatively short period of time in order for the refreshing to occur. Please try to allow yourselves to feel great encouragement, for your procreative fasting will inevitably result in an abundance of genuine flourishing appreciation and adoration towards all things natural on Earth, but most importantly the youngest, most vulnerable members of your species.

The greys had strongly emphasized they well sensed and understood that their explanations about and justifications for the implementation of the refreshing process came across to very many people as being a bit too platitudinously warm and fuzzy for their comfort. Nevertheless, the greys could only offer their own history records which reasoned that the humans’ crucial course change of their existence was precisely equal in immense importance to that of the greys.

Henceforth the refreshment transition was set to continue for three millennia, a point at which all, as anticipated and promised, had become as they were persistently intended.

When the greys eventually left 2015 Earth in their travel craft they folded time at the exact point in space of their arrival (almost five months prior), that being just over five thousand miles from Earth’s surface.

[Afterthought: What came first—the chicken or the egg? Would not logic dictate that humanity must have gotten along well enough on its own in order for the greys—who are in entirety vastly evolved human beings—to have come into such amazingly brilliant existence? More so, how could have a very small group of contemporary naturally-born humans survived near-extinction and then evolved into greys who then travelled back into the past to spare their ancient human ancestors from the bare-miss extinction, even though it was perhaps that very near-extinction that had resulted in such vast human evolution and precisely which then specifically culminated in the “refreshing” concept and time-travel mission?

Unlike with The Terminator movies in which man and machine from the future time-travel into the past to prevent or ensure (depending on allegiance) Judgment Day, though all of which only manages to maintain the continuance of a consistent causality loop, the greys’ human-sterilizing efforts could only produce a by-definition example of a paradox.

According to current laws of temporal physics the sole two ways through which the greys may have managed to successfully ‘change the past’ while simultaneously avoid a paradox would be: first, to either have ‘made their changes’ as a consistent part of the original causality loop; or second, to have created an alternate reality or the means to have shifted into a parallel universe that would already be consistent with the enormous changes that the greys have made.]

(Written in 2010)

In All Due Fairness: A Manifesto on Unjust Worldly Suffering

[Over the last three or so decades, whenever I’d hear of parents mourning their child’s untimely and needless violent death, I would add some element to the fictional account below, which was originally penned in the early 1990s. I would find bewildering then inconceivable the commonly held theistic notion that God would/will enable one praying couple’s child to be spared a brutal death while allowing another praying couple’s child to painfully perish.]

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LISTENING to her teenage daughter’s recorded screams, the distraught mother could not contain her grief. With heaving sobs, she stood to leave the courtroom, only to have her weakened knees buckle and collapse onto the courtroom floor.

Gasps came from many spectators (some others she’d suspected to be but voyeurs), as the bailiff, district attorney, and even defense council, rushing to assist the bereaved woman. Slowly, gently facilitating the trembling frail woman to her feet, the three courtroom officials somehow misperceived stability in her pale expression and gradually pulled away their hands. But she was so shaken by the prosecution’s key evidence — that of the accused’s own trophy audio-video of her only child’s last tortured hours alive — she fell hard, flat unconscious.

The night she was kidnapped, the desperate mother had locked her daughter out of the house in an attempt to correct the otherwise average girl’s increasing tendency to breach curfew. It was the first (and tragically final) time the mother had, still with much reluctance, attempted such a tough-love measure. Only it had gone the most horribly wrong.

By all accounts, the mother had been a fine parent, as was the girl’s father; although he, until then healthy, had died suddenly of a massive coronary less than a month after his “little princess” had been prolongedly tortured, then murdered in the worst way. The girl’s assailant had caused her all the real hell any parent wishes against their child ever having to nightmare about, let alone actually instinctively enduring for the sake of surviving the atrocity, only to be snuffed out at day’s end anyway.

And that appeared to have been the last straw. …

Suddenly everyone on Earth was aware of an unprecedentedly profound Great Change, and one that would become a far better existence than just moments before. The planet-wide awakening was a massive shift that would finally find favor for the most materially, physically, mentally and spiritually poor people of all.

For starters, every fortunate person was forced, as though by true magic, to empathically share in the anguish suffered by the greatest life-sentence affliction that Fate can cruelly, yet with cold apathy, reserve for a parent — a child lost to a torturous death. Now all bore a tiny portion — thus one sometimes imperceivable — of that enormous emotional turmoil otherwise suffered solely by those individuals who’d received the lottery-jackpot-odds lousiest of parental luck.

In rehabilitative return, those most unfortunate parents who’d suffered such unjust extreme loss, inexplicably felt very great relief from their overwhelming affliction. Their trembling hands slowly left their tear-streaked faces, for their heavy hearts no longer suffered the agony alone.

With the supernatural change, however involuntary, when all shared in such a terrible personal toll, it became a literal — rather than just the common figurative — sharing of grief. It was analogous to a fiscally imprudent national government that had invested a large sum of treasury funds into an eventually losing deal; but with the shortfall shouldered by the large collective citizenry, the burden on the individual taxpayer was so much greatly lessened, if not unnoticeable.

Rather than being specific thought invasively transmitted and received, it was loosely comparable to an expecting husband’s sympathy pains suffered for his greatly laboring pregnant wife. Even academics agreed it was akin to everyone having been spontaneously cerebrally re-hardwired to literally share in others’ dreadful suffering, like so many undisturbed antennas suddenly receiving the immensely distressed signals from a few isolated agonized antennas.

Most assumed the change was implemented by a kindly sentient omnipotent source. This was defined by monotheists as God, and by polytheists as multiple powerful spirits; while others believed greatly advanced caring alien-race monitors were responsible. Many secular humanists theorized it was simply the good within humankind itself psychically coming to long-overdue overpowering conscience terms with the disproportionate injustices suffered by some but not by most others.

Of course the change was also well received by many other worldwide examples of disproportionate suffering, notably that of desperately poor citizens of developing nations wanting for the most basic of life’s necessities. Indeed, great empathic relief was felt long before the arrival of overflowing shipments of water purification devices, as well as the exponentially larger quantities of food and medicine than ever before — all gratefully given by the prosperous nations because the planet’s privileged people were abruptly enduring what had consumed the world’s most needy for far too long. And in return, the fortunate givers felt physically and mentally so much better.

Although initially the otherwise fortunate felt indignant by the change, that they’d done nothing personally wrong to justify the unfavorable empathy they’d have to endure, soon it no longer felt like an imposition but rather a universal effect in which all were naturally wanting to treat all affliction, just as though it was in fact one’s very own turmoil. And contrary to the usual human-history pendulum swing of ideological and political mood, the Great Change was a permanently solidified authentic sense of others’ upheaval, therefore no chance would remain of all reverting to the unjust existential norm of yore. ….

[Frank G Sterle Jr]

Not What It Was Supposed To Be [originally titled That Other Place]

WHEN Randall’s Ford pick-up truck ran head-on into the concrete meridian at a hundred and seventy-six kilometers per hour—a direct result of the thirteen beers he’d recklessly finished consuming less than a half-hour prior—he was dashed into eternity so instantaneously he didn’t realize he’d been killed. Or at least he didn’t immediately realize the fact. It took him a tiny amount of physical-universe time (or contrarily actually centuries, he considered), in the sense that time passage is noticeable only in corporeal reality. For, in the extra-dimensional hereafter, time does not exist, thus nor does the anxiousness often caused by the perceivedly slow passage of time. To him, the dead Randall, one second might as well be one day, one year, one millennium—or a million millenniums, for that matter; he didn’t notice the passage of physical time at all. Thus, perhaps the phrase ‘for an eternity’ would be much more accurately and plausibly referenced to if replaced with plain ‘timelessness,’ he figured, albeit timelessness is also a state of existence to which physical and psychological humankind cannot truly relate.

“This place isn’t at all what I’d expected,” he emphatically proclaimed.

Not only was it not fire-hot there, but it was actually quite comfortable temperature-wise. However, it then occurred to him that there seemed to be an indescribable absence of temperature—no warmth, no coolness, no nothing—a sort of meteorological neutrality. And not only was this place not a cavernous pit of molten lava with condemned souls screaming in agony, but everything seemed to be elevated, almost like being at the peak of a mountain. Although it appeared to be surrounded by an overcast sky, this peak had a rather flat surface (about two square kilometers) covered with dry, light-brown dirt and sharp-edged pebbles. Looking up, it seemed to Randall that there wasn’t a sky; rather, it was like a bright-gray translucent dome.

Randall often experienced urges to go to the edge of this post-death place and look down. However, an instinctive cognizance that he should not dare go look overwhelmed him each and every time, and he was filled with anxiety such as he’d never experienced, and never thought possible, when he was alive. Immediately following this punishing rush of intense anxiety—an anxiety that left behind a burning sensation—Randall would decide to never again entertain the notion of looking down off of the edge. Yet, without failure, he would again and again allow the thought to lead him to consider what he obviously wasn’t supposed to consider—the proverbial forbidden fruit into which he was not to bite.

Likely nor were the others supposed to look down over the edge, he figured. The others with Randall at that place were a countless multitude; but he could not understand how the universal laws of time and space familiar to him in his lifetime were fantastically defied in this place. For all of the entities surrounding him actually fit onto the relatively-small surface, which was that place called Hell. He was quite sure that so many fitting into so little had to do with their, what he thought of as, ‘variable realities’. (Randall impressed himself with his utilization of such advanced notions, his lifetime experience including but a Grade 12 education and some years of Star Trek watching.) Each of these souls, he observed, seemed to exist in its own reality or dimension, since every soul appeared to be slightly more or less visibly clear than the other souls. Although every one of them was to some degree translucent and hazy, each (including himself) had its own, what Randall called, ‘phase of existence’; and every soul, though aware of its fellow souls (he noticed how each noticed all of the others), was thus consciously confined to its own reality or universe. Randall found these two observations to be rather paradoxical, because how, he questioned, could each soul be aware of all the other entities when each was in its own reality? Nonetheless, he found his inability to communicate with his fellow spirits to be quite unbearable at times, particularly since the semi-transparent specters numbered so very many yet were all completely unreachable.

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Randall had spent his pre-adult life trying to believe as well as accommodate his parents’ instructions to him—but in particular their unified view of the afterlife and all of its Judeo-Christian theological attachments. Foremost, that Hell was essentially going to be a conscious fiery existence of unrelenting physical and mental misery; the Devil’s domain, consisting of lost souls weeping, wailing and gnashing their teeth—all to pay for their corporeal realm crimes, big and small; that is, unless they weren’t late in genuinely repenting along with essentially forcing themselves to believe specific beliefs.

As a young college student, however, he’d found he couldn’t help but wonder:

Maybe we view our creator and accompanying spirituality according to our own natures and beliefs? They can be the most compassionate, forgiving, peace-loving and always-turn-thy-other-cheek sort, as was Jesus Christ; or they can be of the disposition that’s full of fire-and-brimstone fury, vengeance-is-mine and an uncompromising eye-for-an-eye.

The latter kind had always frightened and depressed Randall. He’d reluctantly risk pissing off his own omniscient Maker by contemplating, How could a God requiring the shed blood of His own innocent incarnated son—in place of the blood of anything-but-innocent Man—as atonement for His own contempt for human sin, be fully trusted to not eventually become so angry that He’d dismiss even His most fundamentalist followers as being the insincere better-be-safe-than-sorry type and condemn them along with all of the other unsaved common sinners? Furthermore, could it be that our individual physically instinctive need for retribution or ‘justice’—regardless of great spiritual leaders as well as Christ having emphasized unconditional forgiveness—is intrinsically linked to the same unfortunate morally-flawed aspect of humankind that enables the most horrible acts of violent cruelty to readily occur on this planet?

Additionally the notion that God required worshipping had always given Randall the creeps, a reaction perhaps in large part due to his own inability to accept any praise without mentally cringing then verbally countering the commendation. Moreover, he believed that the Creator would want “houses of worship” to be there for people’s non-physical health needs; in other words, churches, mosques, synagogues, etcetera, should be for the human spirit what hospitals are for the body.

On occasion Randal enjoyed musing over a radio-broadcast of a prerecorded sermon he’d listened to some years earlier entitled “A Bird’s Eye View of Hell”, which was well-orated by a renowned though long-deceased preacher. It was based upon a hypothetical alternative version of Hell, one he henceforth found delightfully unconventional as a theological concept outside of the traditional literalism of fundamentalist Dead Sea Scrolls interpretation. He couldn’t recall that any form of classical comeuppance punishment, let alone actual fire, had a part in that forty-five-minute sermon’s alternate version of Hell.

This idea would lead to Randall’s memory of reading about another notable theological alternative to the traditional fire-and-brimstone Hell, one held by many members of the Christian church of Latter Day Saints—that hellfire in actually is self-applied in the form of burning guilt. He realized it may be penance far more vicious than the average earthly person can appreciate. If one perhaps believes that upon our physical death we all—including the very worst of history’s tyrants and genocidal maniacs—are relieved of literally one hundred percent of the anger, bitterness and hate with which we were burdened in life, this could force all of us souls to uninterruptedly contemplate every bit of earthly suffering we had needlessly caused by our blindingly contemptable corporeal acts.

Also, he felt that Jesus didn’t die for humans as payment for their sins, the greatest being mostly the result of often-unchecked testosterone rushes; rather, Christ was brutally murdered because of humans’ seriously flawed sinful nature. He was viciously killed because he did not in the least behave in accordance to corrupted human conduct—and in particular because he was nowhere near to being the blood-thirsty vengeful behemoth so many wanted or needed their saviour to be and therefore believed he’d have to be. Christ died in large part, Randall supposed, because Man wanted God to be a reflection of Man, although the latter probably didn’t realize it. God, however, became incarnate to prove to Man that there really was hope for the many seeing hopelessness in such an angry creator requiring literal pain-filled penance for Man’s immoral nature thus corrupted behavior; He came to show humankind what Messiah ought to be.

And Randall also occasionally wondered about the common theological perception of the Almighty as being gender specific, i.e. God the Father. Why would the omnipotent Creator of everything have any need for genitalia, let alone male-specific gonads, unless ‘He’ procreated and/or excreted in typical human fashion, which is quite difficult to imagine?

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Then came the powerful disembodied voice. Judging from the others’ sudden reaction, it had to have been audible (or via telepathy) to every soul there. The voice told every occupant in Hell they were to take part in a profound “field trip”—all inhabitants there were to “visit Heaven”.

My God, Randall thought excitedly, we’re actually going to experience Heaven?!

“Furthermore,” continued the voice, “those of you who choose to do so may remain in Heaven for eternity.”

Randall could not believe what he’d heard. We can actually stay there—forever?!

“But understand this,” the voice resumed, “those of you who wish to come back to Hell must be ready to do so by the designated returning time, or else you will have to remain in Heaven. For eternity.”

Is he joking? Randall thought. We’ll “have to remain in Heaven”? Who in the hell in his right mind would not want to permanently stay in Heaven!? “You drive a hard bargain,” Randall called out, quite sarcastically. He chuckled to himself at his clever retort.

A rumble of considerable anger just then reverberated throughout Hell. However Hollywood cliché it all seemed, he’d obviously pissed off someone big there with his ridicule. Not intimidated, though, Randall again mocked the source of the voice with, “Whenever you’re ready.”

As the rumbling ceased, Randall, along with all of the other souls, experienced a great change in their Hell-bound status. They had indeed left for another reality—a heavenly one. And not surprising, because in the afterlife time and space are non-existent, the ‘trip’ from Hell to Heaven was literally instantaneous (as indeed it should be, Randall felt), even though he’d been led to believe in Sunday school that Hell and Heaven were an infinite distance apart. This theological concept always came to mind whenever he’d hear of Einstein’s special relativity, and vice versa, specifically the postulate maintaining that an infinite amount of energy is required to achieve the infinite speed of light; yet those light-barrier physics, however fascinating, never did make sense to Randall, as he perceived it to be contradictory, at least in a terminological sense. What did make sense to him was that the speed of light actually wasn’t ‘infinite’—on the contrary, to him, it was an infinity from being infinite; rather, it was only too limited when he considered it took over four light years just to reach our closest, neighboring star (while also keeping in mind there are about two hundred billion galaxies in the observable universe, and within that, many astrophysicists believe, there’s an atom of matter for every eighty-eight gallons of space). Therefore, Randall figured, to travel an infinite distance requiring an infinite speed, thus literally doing so instantaneously, would truly require an infinite amount of energy—contrary to the finite amount of energy required, one might’ve logically concluded, to achieve the relatively sluggish and obviously quite finite speed of light (186,282 miles per second). But then, again, he decided to himself, what do I know?

As for Randall’s infinite trip, it had been made. There, he felt that the change that had occurred was nothing short of uniquely incredible: the difference in the entire environment and a soul’s new condition—or more accurate, the suddenly unbearably more-noticeable condition. For though the ‘trip’ from the Dwelling of the Damned to the House of God was basically unnoticeable, Randall and the others who’d come with him unexpectedly found themselves at the point of an extreme discomfort. There they were, surrounded by a countless quantity of ‘Blessed’ souls, who had all arrived in Paradise at the moment of their corporeal death, all of whom existed in a state of, for lack of more accurate terms of reference, the very purest of gold. It was a gold that was far beyond the purest gold found in the physical universe—a gold almost radiant white. Indeed, this gold did not tolerate even the tiniest hint of the foul dirt or impurity of sin; thus was the state of being in and of Heaven, the Kingdom of God. So pure was this place of gold, this place of eternal euphoria, that the visiting unfortunate souls—in their mud-covered, sinful condition, from that other place called Hell—stood out like pitch-black sheep amongst those of the purest of white.

Randall and his dirty ilk each felt about as comfortable in Heaven as would a drop of ice-cold water released into scorching-hot oil in the corporeal realm. And they did not want anything more than to leave the House of God, and immediately so. “I want to get the hell out of here!” Randall asserted, with all of the other dirty souls in total agreement.

“And I want to go right now—back to that other place!”

“Whenever you’re ready,” the voice responded, mockingly repeating Randall’s earlier arrogantly invitational line.

Just as before, the ‘trip’ was instantaneous—they were back in Hell and feeling quite at home, like a well-fitting leather glove on a very familiar hand. However, he then noticed what was up to that point unnoticeable, at least to him—not a single, tiny spot on his spiritual self was free of this sin-induced filth of Evermore. He also noticed that his dirty state of being, in fact, actually blended-in quite well with the filthy, sin-smeared environment of Hell. One might say that Randall’s situation resembled that of a chameleon damned to one eternal, ugly color.

Yes, had Randall been of a different nature in corporeal life and was destined for Heaven—though in a purest, sinless state of his being—he would’ve quite willingly went; for, while very briefly in Heaven, he had sensed that for those who truly belonged, there was a far better state of existence in Paradise than there is in Hell. But having arrived back in Hell, I would not have believed it had I not gone there for myself, he thought, contentedly realizing he was to spend the rest of a timelessness eternity in Hell. He was convinced that, because of his sin-stained soul, there was a worse place than Hell for him. Randall, forever stained with non-forgiven sin (though ‘forever’ did not really mean anything there), actually literally preferred to spend an eternity in Hell, had corporeal-realm linear-time applied, than a moment in Heaven.

Frank G Sterle Jr

(NOVELLA) Two Accounts of the Ment Resistance Incident and the Inhumanity Shown by the Norms

(written in 2008)

DURING the nineteen-year period between 2029 and 2056 AD, the people of Greater Vancouver Regional District (GVRD) were collectively willing bystanders, albeit deceived into behaving so, to a vast inhuman, insidiously malicious act. Perpetrated by the head-honchos (via their henchmen) of a global food production and genetic engineering conglomerate, OneWorldTopStandardProducts (OWTSP), they maintained a sufficiently enormous multitude of tentacle-like regional branches penetrating into almost every nation across the planet.

The global conglomerate’s Vancouver branch, operated by OWTSP’s North American corporate entity InterTopStandardProducts (ITSP), was assigned the “prototype facility” status that entailed the performance of blatantly immoral, unethical and criminal abusively invasive means of laboratory research and testing on human beings, beginning at their embryotic stage.

To acquire their targeted quantity of 218 future test-subjects, the ITSP facility advertised irresistible offers to area couples who strongly desired to conceive their own children but were deemed by their own physician(s) to be biologically incompatible to do so. The facility offered interested couples, who must not be deemed infertile by a facility doctor, free in-vitro fertilization procedures as well as free full facility-hospital accommodation—a package that would otherwise cost each couple, whose dual salaries combined make up but one average income, upwards to a million dollars.

When the inevitable logical question surfaced from interested couples as to exactly what the facility got out of it all, the reply had been thoroughly thought-out and very well-rehearsed.

“Well, in return, the expectant mother remains at the clinic until birthing occurs, following by the resultant offspring spending some time at the clinic, as we observe their progress—of course with all regular life-related costs, such as food and clothing, etcetera, totally covered by us. And of course you’ll be spending very much time with them, as you’ll be staying during interval periods at our facility’s luxury living quarters, again free of charge … Just to be openly clear, the entire purpose of the ‘free offer’ is for us to learn the healthiest means of rearing a physically, psychologically and emotionally stable child into his or her teenage years. There’s really absolutely nothing to worry about—nothing—and our health representatives will go over everything in intrinsic detail before anything is agreed upon and signed.”

However, the big secret was that, immediately upon the couple’s sperm and ovum having merged and formed into a viable embryo, its DNA strands and therefore genetic code went through the rigorous engineering as had always been intended. If following the biological tampering the embryo remained viable, it was implanted onto the uterus wall of the mother-to-be, along with a virtual hundred percent certainty of successful impregnation due to even more state-of-the-art human-biology-tech tinkering.

After four weeks of gestation, when the embryo has increasingly developed the three sections of its brain, the fetus was again insidiously manipulated with a genetically engineered cerebral-enhancing chemical compound covertly placed into the meals given to the mother-to-be. The flavorless compound was designed to be digested then absorbed into her bloodstream and from there directly into the fetus.

Further genetic manipulation occurred yet again during the crucial Week Six, upon the formation of the brain’s two hemispheres which includes some wave activity; and lastly during week seven, with the neural tube connecting the rapidly-growing brain and spinal cord sealing in finality.

The design and intent of the for-profit project was to chemically stimulate the fetal subject’s developing brain with the goal of significantly enhancing its future mental acuity thus in the long term creating a human being with artificially advanced cerebral capacity.

Extremely unfortunate for the future hybrid-human youth, however, was that such unprecedented genetic manipulation of fetal development would virtually guarantee the test-subject a lifetime of clinical mental illness amongst various sorts and intensities. The illness would be psychiatrically diagnosed by professionals intrinsically linked to the project, who had already predetermined that the mental illness would fully form by no later than age fourteen. For this reason, ITSP’s best chemists commenced their lab work to create a modern psychotropic medication—though (again covertly) complimented by a further significant aspect to serve ITSP’s project interests—conceived solely for consumption by the test-subjects.

Only thirteen months after their births, it was already confirmed via the latest genetic profiling technology with which specific mental illness and intensity of such each test-subject offspring inevitably was to be afflicted.

When the eventuality of such misfortune manifested itself after years gone by, the mostly teenaged test-subjects having been diagnosed with mental illness were then thoroughly utilized as lab rats to field test a brand new state-of-the-art multi-psychiatric-purpose medication christened Pronetin.

Up till that point, everything—other than the initially-unforeseen future test-subject mental illness—was advancing as had been scientifically determined. The human-lab-rat experiments projected to eventually procure from the test-subjects demonstrable psychical abilities, including telekinesis, temporal deviation inclinations (i.e. precognition) and other such paranormal talents.

As for any relief from symptoms of their mental illness, the test-subjects then and there essentially had no choice but to indefinitely consume the Pronetin on a one-pill-per-day basis. Yet while so doing, they weren’t just alleviating some symptoms, but far more important to ITSP’s project plans, the medication would also additionally enhance their artificially spawned psychical abilities.

But as though matters hadn’t regressed enough, the test-subjects’ parents were soon erroneously informed that their mentally ill offspring must continue their daily Pronetin dosages or else consequently face a near certainty of developing a degenerative debilitating brain condition—an effective scare tactic with very productive results in ITSP’s favour.

FOR six out of every twelve weeks of their test-subject offspring’s extended stay at ITSP’s Vancouver branch, the eager parents resided in the enormous research facility’s exceptionally comfortable guest quarters immediately adjacent to the large dorm-like living quarters of their children.

Quite pleased, the parents observed their children enjoying a fun and intellectually stimulating experience. Furthermore, the parents were exceptionally pleased by their offspring scoring unprecedentedly high grades (relative to their age) in their science and calculus studies, amongst other advanced-level subjects, at the facility’s educational institute self-servingly referred to as InterTopStandard Life Studies & Quality.

Whenever somewhat bewildered parents queried, and then on occasion queried again, the staff as to ITSP’s specific interest in their offspring’s wellbeing, the standard public-relations platitudinous reply basically remained that, “Our goal ultimately is to ensure that all children—including the countless unprivileged youngsters around the globe—will sooner rather than later be enabled to utilize their full human potential in advancing themselves towards a bright, healthy future.”

Not surprising, the parents, quite anxious to continue receiving the otherwise unaffordable care for their children that consistently resulted in the youths’ high academic accomplishment reports, were left conveniently susceptible (for ITSP) to swallow the PR line. Until it would in later years become belated public fact, no parent would open up their minds to learning the entire truth about how their misguided though very honorable intentions had been blatantly exploited by ITSP, all at their children’s great expense. The parents would very bitterly learn that the sole purpose of their test-subject children’s entire stay at the facility was but for the success of the ITSP and parent conglomerate OneWorldTopStandardProducts mega-project for mega-profit.

As expected all along by the mass corporate interests, month after month the parents also were remarkably pleased upon witnessing their offspring so very much wishing to remain there, particularly with so many likeminded youngsters with whom to physically interact and exchange both jokes and atypical intellectually advanced concepts on a variety of topics.

“They’re just so … so amazingly bright!” an impressed parent emphatically expressed to clinic staff attending to her twin son and daughter. “What you people, the corporation, are doing for our children, for all children, is absolutely wonderful and incredibly generous. You are all truly God sent!”

AS time progressed in many score months, the first set of three dozen test-subjects entered their teens and soon began exhibiting psychical abilities, mostly in the form of telekinesis and telepathy, which utilize the brain’s extremely low frequency (ELF) Alpha brainwaves. The immediate ITSP response to this new situation was to maintain collective ignorance for a few years, with clinic staff and lab techs ordered by their superiors to convince the young test-subjects to remain calm and quiet about their new found abilities.

The same clinic staff and lab techs found it easy enough to pass along to the test-subjects ‘explanations’ that ITSP’s head-honchos fabricated as to why substances were suddenly being injected into the children’s spinal cord at the base of their skull. On one very rare occasion, a parent inadvertently witnessed lab team members performing such injections. That parent immediately received a template PR response to her somewhat concerned query—one that she was politely asked to imminently openly share with fellow parents of the test-subjects.

“They’re perfectly harmless. They’re vitamin and mineral supplementations given to ensure that the children receive anything that may be lacking in their diets.”

According to facility statistics, the test subjects who were both plagued with mental illness and psychical abilities numbered 218 in total (as was the conglomerate’s target quantity for that specific ITSP regional branch). Broken down according to age, the stats revealed that ninety-seven percent of them were in their teens. Twenty-four of those percentage points represented test-subjects between the ages of thirteen to fourteen; thirty-six percentage points represented test-subjects fifteen to sixteen years of age, and the remaining thirty-seven percentage points consisted of seventeen- to nineteen-year-old subjects of the project. Only three percentage points represented those aged either twelve or twenty, with no one being either younger or older than those respective latter two ages.

Even after so many years had passed, there still had yet to be a single notable suspicion expressed by any parent about what was really occurring at any of ITSP’s North American regional branches, let alone specifically that of Vancouver. All along, the young test-subjects had been genetically and chemically primed, from the embryonic stage to the commencement of adolescence, a patently unethical and immoral tampering that, as intended, resulted in the inevitable development of psychical abilities, although accompanied by a terrible side effect in the form of mental illness. The misadventure and manifestly inhuman exploitation suffered by the youth was just that well-managed by ITSP’s employees and topnotch public relations people.

But there would imminently be a time of reckoning.

There was a formidable negative sentiment accumulation occurring, one involving the youths’ collective resentment over “the very suspect and increasingly painful procedures performed on us since … since forever—and especially the strange cerebral events and illnesses that have surfaced over the past two years.”

With the lab-team members’ private thoughts having become progressively readily readable by most test-subjects, the formerly fully concealed purpose of the project from Day One. Month after month it was becoming clearer to the young telepaths that their great burdens were for naught but the financial benefit of the conglomerate and its minion subsidiaries; for the mega-corporate entity to acquire competing corporations’ valuable secrets through the utilization of the psychical abilities they had years before genetically implanted then artificially enhanced upon the young test-subjects.

“All of ITSP’s work focused upon exceptional breakthroughs in genetic engineering and the resultant successful procurement of psychical abilities from human test-subjects, paranormal talents ranging from low-level telepathy to formidable full-capacity telekinesis. However, the genetically thus cerebrally enhanced test-subjects unfortunately developed severe mental illness of varying sorts by no later than age thirteen.

Their eventual development of psychical abilities was intended for utilization, albeit by way of unconventional methodology, in serving OneWorldTopStandardProducts’ strategic corporate interests via the infiltration of its competitor conglomerate corporations’ databases.

Upon the full validation of their beliefs regarding the callously cold exploitation of their unsolicited psychical abilities, all accompanied by serious mental health side effects, the vast majority of the test-subjects firmly decided, for starters, to refuse further consumption of their 40 mg daily dosages of Pronetin. Of course the facility’s lab team members again urged them (with crocodile tears) with forewarnings of the supposed “extremely serious repercussions” of Pronetin withdrawal and its resultant imminent psychotic relapse.

“It really does mean the gradual loss of normal necessary cerebral and bodily functions closely followed by permanent neural degradation.”

Contrarily, it could’ve been accurately stated that the Pronetin medication wouldn’t permit its consumers full and permanent withdrawal—or “escape,” as the test-subjects would later on refer to it—from medium-term dependence, i.e. three-years-plus of daily dosages involving 20 mg or more.

As it were, the facility’s lab team members, under the thumb of ITSP, insisted upon all test-subjects’ full cooperation in maintaining their residence at the facility’s living quarters, continued Pronetin consumption (typically of 40 mg per day) and availability for daily lab tests and treatments.

The following day saw a tremendously unnerving initial indication of impending terrible things to come.

Each lab team staffer was issued a “masking helmet, for your own security”—though also to offer physical protection from flying objects telekinetically thrown about, it foremost was intended to obstruct “thought invasions and other forms of telepathic manipulation.”

Further serving ITSP’s interests at this troubled point in time was the fact that, as pre-memory infants, a mild pain inducing “zapper” had been covertly implanted a centimeter into each toddler’s shoulder muscle. Such could be activated by the simple pressing of a button in the hands of senior lab staff, though according to top-brass with ITSP, “the device is to be utilized only on the unlikely occasion that bodily harm to our employees by test-subjects is an imminent threat.”

When test-subjects had decided upon going AWOL (Absent Without Official Leave) from the lab facility, each had the zapper removed by one of three rogue night-shift lab staff who chose to risk their career over the furthering of the youths’ suffering by way of corporate mandate.

Contrary to reacting with malleable minds and docile personalities towards the injustices committed against them for ITSP’s monetary benefit, the large majority of the young test-subjects behaved defiantly. With all of ITSP’s attempts to control them, the youths’ unprecedented artificially-manufactured psychical abilities posed a potential arduous threat. It increasingly appeared that ITSP’s considerable time, effort and resources invested into years of experimentation with genetic engineering would become regarded as not just a failure and waste but also an ugly, troublesome threat.

Minus the small minority who solely out of fear decided to stay behind, the test-subjects who decided to go AWOL felt they had no option other than to continue their Pronetin consumption (by stealing enough Pronetin to last them a solid quarter century) while maintaining hopes of eventually being able to hone their psychical talents and thus fully liberate themselves (forcibly, if need be) from the facility.

WITHIN two years of liberation from their lab-rat status, almost all AWOL “Ments” (as the test-subjects began referring to themselves) had become potently psychical. They could already ‘sense’ that they’d been designated with extermination status by the “Corp” (as the Ments began referring to ITSP). Henceforth the Corp strategically yet implicitly re-shaped public opinion via various media followed by word of mouth against the general mentally ill populace. But not long after that, they subtly targeted their negative PR campaign specifically towards “the ‘Ment’ resistance” (a Corp-established phrase reference to the former test-subjects) who, according to the Corp’s ambiguous claims, “will sooner than later become anarchist threats to normal peaceful society.”

But in actuality, the true threats to society were ITSP’s health-hazardous genetically engineered or modified foods sold to the general populace or “Norms” (another term christened by the former test-subjects or Ments).

Also very disturbing was the (albeit compelled) culpability of the global mainstream news-media, through their outlets in every major city on the planet. At the behest of their respective majority shareholders ITSP and its sub-entity branches worldwide, the news-media propagated an ideological shift within Norm society towards intolerance of that which is cerebrally abnormal. Seemingly discarded right out the journalistic window was the profession’s formerly incorruptible adage, “Comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.”

However, there’d also be the rare unscripted spiteful rant on the topic by a Corp head-honcho that also got reported. As with almost all academia and accompanying professions, there were numerous news-media employees who’d refused to compromise themselves, and they paid for doing so with their careers.

“The Ments parasitically exploit the citizens of the normal hard-working and taxpaying communities of the world. They must be stopped!”

Yet, the real exploitation was actually that by ITSP of the Ments, the latter whom by definition were themselves also citizens. Nevertheless, they were allowed minimal employment opportunities and thus little income—if any at all, mainly because they had to stay off the all-knowing ‘grid’ to maintain secure anonymity, though such (non)status excluded them from accessing any disability benefit income.

During the initial years of large-majority Ment emancipation from lab-rat status, the Corp successfully turned a significant portion of the Norm populace against the meager-quantity Ment population. By publicly emphasizing that the Ments “are draining working society dry through various handouts and freebies or through criminal activity,” the Corp gave an erroneous yet influential impression that the Ments somehow had access to government assistance.

“It should be increasingly common knowledge that they’ve had it a bit too easy, for a bit too long.”

What exactly are all of InterTopStandardProduct’s interests that it perceives as being threatened by the Ments? was the crucial question that the more thoughtful amongst the Norm populace might have taken the moral initiative to publicly put before the Corp.

Instead, the Norm large-majority remained conveniently quiet in response to the mass demonization of the mostly scattered, tiny Ment community.

The very difficult honest answer would have essentially been, ITSP’s interests are sufficiently significant that ‘Big Tobacco,’ a most despised product of which our conglomerate holds not a single share, is used as a very expedient diversionary tactic to retain the focus of the Norm consciousness and condemnation away from our new and also health-hazardous products. We, ITSP, basically force-fed an unsuspecting citizenry unhealthy genetically manipulated foods in the form of produce and grains (fruits, vegetables, rice and wheat) as well as meat and dairy products (milk, eggs and yogurt).

A year later, a large Corp advertorial campaign was initiated against the Ment resistance, the latter which had organized into a relatively efficient cell. The negative PR campaign was especially critical of Ment-published essays (although anonymously in low-circulation journals, since mainstream media weren’t interested in such Ment “propaganda) that in detail warned the Norm populace about the health hazards of consuming genetically manipulated foods.

The Corp adamantly maintained that, “Such claims by the Ments are without any proven basis in fact, but rather are self-serving half-truths or outright lies. These outcasts stubbornly choose to not even sample these healthier, higher yield quality foods. These people are simply too paranoid to try experiencing anything progressive that we, that all of normal society, has to offer. They’re obviously only preoccupied with mental illness, frustration and plain aggression.”

It was through their control of information dissemination that the Corp efficiently totally fabricated the concept that, “statistics and study findings indicate that the Ments have become a disproportionately large source of criminal behavior, including violent assaults and homicide. Without doubt, they are an intolerable threat to peaceful, functional society.”

Just eight days shy of a year after the former test-subjects went AWOL from its research facility, the Corp determined that due to the Ments’ honing or fully honed psychical abilities, the conventional extermination required ambush-like surprise attacks. Henceforth, highly skilled Norm mercenaries were utilized and equipped with “masking helmets” that theoretically would suppress virtually all ELF brainwave emissions, though with more limited success with finely proficient telepaths. Thus the vast majority of Ments were at all times unaware of an approaching extermination threat from such a highly-skilled source; and as such, many were destined to be ‘taken out’ by fully automatic assault rifles’ hollow-point bullets designed specifically to literally explode their targets’ psychically-abled brains.

Yet the Corp also employed “suppressive psychics,” however. Exceedingly potent telepaths—a few of whom were actually Ment ‘turncoats’ sufficiently paid or plainly extorted by threatening their loved-ones—suppressive psychics would telepathically disrupt or obstruct resistance-Ments’ psychical abilities, in particular their telepathic sense of approaching danger.

But even equipped with such high-tech masking helmets and high-powered firearms, extermination missions were nevertheless the most efficiently performed as deadly serious work by exterminators. If adequately calm and focused, the potently psychical Ment would promptly formidably telekinetically retaliate, and for good measure, if he or she wasn’t taken out expeditiously.

PSYCHICALLY the Ments were absolutely certain of the Corp’s factual knowledge of the real risk of multitudes of Norm citizens developing various forms of malignant cancer amongst other serious disease through their consumption of the Corp’s genetically engineered foods. Indeed, an inconspicuous Ment information website posted minimally published research results competently discrediting vastly publicized yet bogus ‘findings’ of ‘studies’ commissioned solely by the Corp. Such did read a posted essay on the website: “InterTopStandardProducts (ITSP) knowingly propagated false ‘facts’ claiming that their genetically ‘enhanced’ food products are not only healthier but are also readily produced in greater quantity and perish at a greatly reduced rate, yet without requiring a greater amount of resources, effort or time. Therefore, far more people are able to be fed with considerably less input in all aspects of the meaning of the term.”

In order to maintain economic, social and political order in their favour, the Corp deemed it in their best interests to immediately counter any information, however little known, that’s contrary to its erroneous propagations.

“The anti-progress resistance movement calling themselves ‘Ments’ are willfully ignorant of the recently scientifically proven fact that mental illness is overcome mostly through the disciplining of one’s mind,” the Corp’s head public relations spokesperson proclaimed to a well-receiving general Norm populace.

“The Ments need only choose to grasp the courage to come back and rejoin the rest of the hard working population.”

With such a large quantity of bad publicity so widely consumed by the Norm populace as a whole—although there indeed was a small number of compassionate Norm folk who rejected the Corp’s PR campaign—came to contemptuously stereotype and distrust the Ments, all lumped together. But the Ments mostly couldn’t find it within themselves to blame the Norms for their negative sentiment, since the latter was efficiently denied knowledge as to what the Corp’s research facility lab employees did to the Ments ever since their very conception, especially the genetic manipulation and the resultant detrimental mental conditions.

As for the Ment populace’s disproportionately high suicide rate, the Corp, even though having been their creators, was but left encouraged at the concept of even more Ments taking that final corporeal route.

The Corp entity, of course with the blessing of its parent conglomerate, went as far as to (though unsuccessfully) attempt convincing general Norm society that mental illness was found by ITSP researchers to largely be contagious, implying that the “infectious” Ments were a problematic health risk not worth tolerating.

YET however greatly burdensome their lives had been, the tide for the former test-subjects was finally to imminently turn in their favour.

Following months of unprecedented mainstream news-media investigative journalism combined with independent scientific studies involving reputable parapsychological research, “shocking results of a nature totally unrealized to this day” (part of a USA Today headline story) were divulged through conventional means. The factual breakthrough resulted in the rare belated knowledge regarding the sad facts surrounding the former and current lab-rat test-subjects finally getting out in the wide open public arena—completely uncensored information becoming increasingly known throughout the entire Norm populace—knowledge that even the Corp’s own suppressed research findings had supported for some years.

The clinically-diagnosed formidable mental illness suffered by a small minority though nonetheless large number of people around the world was in fact a form of that small minority’s ESP-based genuine empathic endurance of the overwhelming psychological turmoil that a large majority of the ‘normal’ population would’ve otherwise suffered. It indeed was discovered through research that, without exception, all clinically diagnosed mentally ill persons in every nation who were tested for such scored very high on the ESP scale.

Yet this genuine empathic suffering experienced by all those with psychical abilities was even significantly more so by the global Ment portion of that sub-populace; for, as exceptionally though artificially psychical young people, they resultantly took on a greater burden of the world’s collective mental illnesses.

It was aptly metaphorically described in a New York Times feature story as being that “of a bone dry sponge squeezed then submerged into filthy bathwater before being released, thus instantly absorbing an enormous quantity of others’ psychoses, clinical depression, hyper-anxiety, etcetera, all to varying degrees of severity.”

Thus it progressively became generally accepted as significant truth that, had the mentally ill former test-subjects not been telepathically forced to experience the serious emotional and psychological struggles or outright anguish in place of so large a portion of the Norm populace, enormously important daily societal functions (e.g. operational hospitals and drinking water purification plants) simply wouldn’t be sufficiently performed. It became accepted fact that, globally, the Ments’ psychological turmoil was the result of their endurance of the accumulative mental illness and dysfunction otherwise suffered by the world’s Norm populace.

As such, without the Ments bearing the figurative collective-Norm cross, vast numbers of otherwise stable-minded Norms would overwhelm every psychiatric ward on the planet with lifelong psychologically-sound people suddenly afflicted with chronic psychosis, nervous breakdowns, debilitating depression, countless cases of severe bi-polar disorder, etcetera.

Without doubt, there’d be a mega-surplus worldwide of Norms-turned-paranoid-schizophrenics, ‘hearing’ voices compelling them to perform diabolical deeds, complimented by frightening visual hallucinations; an inundation of new cases of chronically clinically depressed Norms suffering crippling grief and hopelessness; a sudden explosion in the global number of obsessive-compulsive-disorder patients who’d, for example, find themselves unable to cease their superfluous repeated hand-washing.

As such, the very small Ment minority inevitable gained the acknowledgement and even gratitude from the Norm populace around the world, although an insufficiently miniscule quantity of them stubbornly refused to relinquish their long-held contempt.

Upon this refreshingly progressive Norm enlightenment, a relatively large number of Ments greatly distanced apart after almost a decade of independence placed themselves onto the global grid and soon began communicating via social media.

They initially expressed doubt or outright disbelief in the notion of them actually having received credit for such a supernaturally supreme sacrifice. Even as psychic Ments, this they felt compelled to skeptically question.

We, however few of us, have ‘taken the bullet’and such a large one at that? And we managed to do it all even after so many of us were gunned down? That’s hardly plausible!

But they’d very soon grow to believe it. When a seasoned Boston Herald reporter was tipped-off into investigating little-known illegal activities by the global conglomerate OneWorldTopStandard’s headquarters itself, her intensive investigation findings made world headlines. The conglomerate’s genetic research and human test-subject laboratory activities at its regional branches had been fully exposed in their entirety.

Thus, for starters, mass Norm popular demand required that immediate ethical, compassionate medical and financial assistance be justly provided in every case of an ill and/or impoverished Ment, including those who had fearfully decided against escaping from OneWorldTopStandard’s many outreaching branches of clinic-and-laboratory facilities around the world.

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The Second Account:

When They Finally Left & What It Would Cost Them

“WHAT’S the matter with her?!” Richard asked Shelley, his voice trembling. He then turned his attention to his other three peers. “And with them?! They look as though their heads are going to burst!”

“Probably the same thing that happened to Stephen just an hour ago,” she replied desperately, “and to Bridget and Paul just before him!”

Richard’s twin sister, Becky, lay on the floor convulsing, with Shelley gently holding her jerking head. In frustration she felt totally useless, as Becky was certain to meet the same violent fate as the five others—a severe brain aneurysm due to blood vessel strain—and Shelley was completely helpless to do anything to save her or the others.

Yet she knew precisely what had triggered the fatal convulsions; for, as a 15-year-old with psychical abilities, she could in actuality see in her mind her dead peers’ ravaged sub-cranial blood vessels.

A wet-behind-the-ears clinic staffer, fresh out of a research facility training clinic, had mistaken the “20 mgs” of Pronetin she was supposed to distribute amongst the test-subjects as a “200 mgs,” as though she wasn’t at all familiar with the grave effects of such an abnormally high dose of the potent psychotropic medication. Shelley indeed knew this for a fact since she could clearly feel the at-fault greenhorn’s frantic panic and guilt ridden thoughts upon looking at her medications instructions sheets a second, third and fourth time.

When Rebecca suddenly ceased convulsing and lay still with a slight nose bleed, both Shelley and Richard could sense that she was gone.

“Sorry,” Shelley consoled him, placing her hand onto his shoulder before whispering to him, “All of her suffering is over. Nobody can hurt her anymore. Not even the Corp.”

“Please, Becky—don’t go.”

Suddenly shaking with last-straw anger, Shelley wiped away her tears before asserting, “We all have to get out of this place—by tomorrow night, the latest—while we can still do so on our own two feet!”

But she realized that she must first involve Jericho and Fiona on this most significant of matters, whether those who wish to do so should go AWOL.

The two oldest, most experienced thus likely wisest InterTopStandardProducts test-subjects, the nineteen-year-old Jericho and a-year-younger Fiona had for some months behaved noticeably resistant towards most of the clinic staff and lab technicians. The pair’s younger fellow test-subjects were exhibiting worrisome signs of “lab subject burnout” (Fiona’s words) as well as acute symptoms of prolonged consumption of the powerful Pronetin in the form of headaches and inexplicable bouts of what was being deemed by facility doctors as “vivid visual and/or auditory hallucinations.”

“But they’re not really by definition ‘hallucinations,’ are they?” Fiona implicitly challenged both the ethical and moral integrity of one particularly callous lab tech named Patheta. (Some of the more aggressive test-subjects nicknamed her “Pathetic,” which, to their rare pleasure, almost always managed to visibly agitate her.

“Those instances of seeing and hearing things that you guys allege are not really there, all end up being confirmed precognitions of notable events that occur in the imminent future. For example, the precognition involving bold censuring we received from you guys that just happened to occur word-for-word two days later. And to answer your doubtful thoughts—No, only Jericho and I knew of all of the precognitions, with their precise contents, and we knew well before they occurred.”

“Well, you know that I empathize with you poor … ,” Patheta had barely began before being abruptly cut off midsentence.

“Oh, bull—t!” blasted Fiona, clearly infuriated by Patheta’s crocodile tears. “You couldn’t ‘empathize’ with others’ suffering even if you were an actual sixth-sense empath, like what’s ’er name … Deanna Troi, from that old Star Trek: The Next … whatever TV series. The fact is, you couldn’t give a rat’s ass about our predicament—the unmistakable sense we’re consistently receiving of being blatantly callously exploited, even to the point of violent death! Like Becky this morning, plus the other five just before her!”

As it were, the fact was that both Jericho and the younger Shelley exhibited notable signs of psychical-empathic abilities. Nevertheless, Fiona, even at that intensely emotional moment, decided to not use her two peers as rare examples of genuine empaths; rather, she’d respect their rightful choice as to if or when they’d bring to the fore any of their psychical abilities, especially where ITSP eyes and ears were concerned.

Very early the following morning, all test-subjects assembled in the facility’s gymnasium, with four of them volunteering to keep watch for any unexpected employees. With Jericho and Fiona each co-chairing the to-date most important meet, the typical teenaged give-and-take chatter of so many youths was soon settled quiet upon Jericho’s request.

“C’mon, people; let’s all listen up,” he politely requested, and was thus obliged. “I’m sure that by now, all or almost all of you have heard about the clinic’s new and very green staffer’s incredibly incompetent blunder that cost six of our fellows their lives—and, sadly so, in a rather horrible manner.”

“Yeah, we have. And I helplessly watched it all happen,” Shelley clearly spoke out at the first opportunity of brief silence. “I for one am not sticking around here a single day longer, especially with the f——g idiot incompetent Corp employees being hired to replace the few who quit due to guilty consciences! Tonight, I’m gone for good. Simple as that.”

The assembled test-subjects then began the discussion of greatest importance—that of the untimely, violent deaths of their six fellows, and how the rest of the test-subjects can’t just sit idly by waiting for an eventual tragic repeat or something very close to it.

The following issue of imminent urgency discussed was that, having spent their entire lives at the facility, which was rather like a miniature city to them, and thus having had no real contact with normal society, the test-subjects, if fully freed, would certainly find the ‘outside world’ notably daunting, at best. It would be comparable to that of prison inmates who’ve become so used to a confined prolonged existence, i.e. “institutionalization,” that they simply cannot last very long in a normal free society before they reoffend or even resort to suicide.

What the test-subjects did agree upon was that they were extremely weary of the ITSP facility and their lab-rat lives; thus they strongly desired relief from it all, even if profoundly difficult lifestyle changes were a requisite for such relief.

“Well, then; we should do what my grandfather’s fellow labour union members would’ve done during the last century,” asserted Paul, the youngest of the most vocal test-subjects favouring eventual AWOL. “For now, let’s go on strike.”

“What exactly do you mean by ‘strike’?” asked another.

“What I mean is, we do what they used to call ‘work to rule’. We’ll continue taking our Pronetin but cease eating our meals. What could they do about it? Physically force the food down our throats? I can’t picture them getting overly extreme here at the facility that they’re willing to openly physically force anything on us; not at this point, anyway.”

There was close to full consensus amongst the 218 test-subjects; the holdouts were mostly teens that feared potential disciplinary consequences by the staff, especially if ITSP was to call the work-to-ruling test-subjects’ bluff.

“If they do test our resolve, then they’ll see that we’re serious,” Jericho defiantly replied. “But I’ll bet they’ll bargain with us.”

He was quite wrong, however, for ITSP had its facility employees take up a firm maintain-order approach; that of course was implemented following a serious forewarning about what unpleasantness to expect soon after quitting a long-term large-daily-dose Pronetin regimen.

Plus, for the first time in their lives the test-subjects found that their cellphones no longer had unrestricted-call access, even that involving their own parents.

Thus the test-subject strikers decided to, just before fleeing the facility, covertly accumulate a very large quantity of Pronetin and whatever other necessities of life that they could readily carry with them to freedom without appearing too conspicuous.

Of course they had full intent upon fully utilizing whatever psychical means at their disposal while fleeing the well-secured grounds. Besides their meat-and-potatoes capability to telekinetically breach otherwise fully fortified locked doors, they’d also “pick up” the highly-alerted thoughts of security personnel fixated on performing the search-and-secure directives ITSP would surely fitfully place upon them immediately after any mass test-subject escape.

The test-subjects who’d remain behind perceived themselves as having no option other than to fully comply by consuming everything facility staff put before them and more so by abiding by all lab-testing required of them. As such, with great melancholy they’d resign themselves to likely spending the remainder of their lives as but “corporate ITSP’s lab rats.”

As for the test-subjects who had left, they divided up the stolen supplies amongst themselves before splitting up into small groups of five or six. With all having agreed to maintain at least some non-traceable contact, preferably telepathy, every group then headed outwards in some direction within the Greater Vancouver area.

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Part 1: The Reunion

The five of them—Bryan, Terra, Jessie, Michael and Paula—met after almost six years of isolation.

They decided to henceforth get together more regularly, at Steiner’s Coffee every second Monday to catch up on one another’s experiences since separating. Each was very curious as to how the others had been affected so far by the Pronetin, specifically the extent to which they suspected the medication had enhanced their psychical abilities.

All found it within themselves to laugh at how they’d greyed, regardless of being but in their early twenties.

Ever since they had gone AWOL from the research facility, each had attended his or her local drop-in centre. Two of them, Terra and Bryan, had incidentally met at an inter-clubhouse dinner party and henceforth spent much time together. They’d meet at other venues, often communicating between themselves only by way of telepathy.

As with all such test-subjects planet-wide, everyone had eventually acquired psychical abilities to some extent, including cases of potent telekinesis, in which the “Ment” maintained the capacity to, as a good example, ‘focus’ a homicidal gunner into turning his weapon upon himself.

Unlike the other four, Bryan turned out to be an exceptionally potent telekinetic, which was due to the large degree of genetic manipulation that he’d underwent as an InterTopStandardProducts test-subject.

He also held the psychical capacity to genuinely experience empathic sensations. For instance, on the occasion that Jessie had been suffering a formidable headache, Bryan, while in close proximity to him, promptly developed or sensed the same headache.

“Well, guys,” Bryan began, “I think we all know why we’re here right now.”

“I feel I do,” offered Paula, with the remaining three concurring.

Bryan again began: “Has anyone here, besides me, been following up or focusing upon the Corp’s activities over the last few years, but in particular their anti-Ment public relations?”

“I saw its CEO in an advertorial,” Peter noted. “He was lying through his teeth about the ‘safe and high quality’ products they’re promoting—just a lot more of their genetically enhanced food BS line. But now there’s also some so-called healthy homeopathic stuff they’ve added. I could fluently feel his deceit; in fact, so much so that I also picked up he knew we’d sense his bulls— right there and then.”

“They’re vicious Great White sharks,” Peter emphasized, “and I strongly sensed that they’ll put up an all-or-nothing-to-the-end fight for their interests.”

Getting in the last word, Bryan included some news. “That’s the understatement of the millennium, considering that the Corp has blown-to-bits our underground research lab after it was discovered. And, yeah guys, it almost certainly was ratted-out by a Ment turncoat. The good news is, all of our people’s test results, our own research findings, etcetera, are digitally coded and saved at multiple locations. But as far as finding another pro-bono independent university lab—not to mention one staffed by a lab team willing to risk their lives for our cause—that’s definitely going to be a most formidable hurdle for us.”

Part 2: The Hall Meeting Turned Ment Massacre

“It’s them or us!” declared the desperate designated speaker. He was a very popular Ment and one of the region’s most talented telepaths, known only as Stowly. “It’s literally our very lives at stake, here, to all be viciously snuffed out! So what are we going to do about it?!”

Such Ment meetings were rare, for doing so made them an easier target for masking-helmeted-thus-brainwave-blocking exterminators assisted by the honed telepathy of a turncoat Ment.

Although the Ments knew that, in the Norms’ eyes, they had no more right to life than wild animals, only to be mowed down with machine guns, the two dozen Ments nevertheless ‘gathered’ themselves for the very-last-moment meet at a small decrepit boarded-up former public hall.

The tension that slowly filled the room was thick and noticeable in Stowly’s voice. Even though they were a fair distance from corporate headquarters, every Ment there knew that he or she was nonetheless simply too vulnerable as a still-too-viable target; and collectively they were considerably more vulnerable than if each remained alone as individuals or even just as pairs or trios meeting somewhere preferably outdoors. Accumulating in such relatively large number thus (so as to be inconspicuous) in an enclosed structure in which they potentially can be entrapped was indeed very risky business in exchange for greater communication, even as telepaths.

“They’ve got the Norm populace actually believing we can’t be trusted, that we’re … ,” Stowly continued before cutting his serious address short. He looked up at the closed entrance doors for a second then back down at his audience to finish his proclamation. “ … They say that we’re nothing but … ,” he again briefly began though only to look back up at the doors.

The roomful of Ments turned their heads toward the doors. They were becoming increasingly concerned, for everyone had heard of Stowly’s exceptional ‘radar,’ even when it came down to potential assailants wearing masking helmets.

Silence fell over the crowd momentarily, followed by a wide-eyed Stowly blaring, “Out of here, everyone! Out through the rear door!”

He toppled over his crate podium in his desperate attempt to safely lead everybody out, but it was already too late. Both rear and front doors were instantly smashed open, with six fully armed exterminators donning masking helmets entering and opening fire, their sole intent being to spare not a single soul.

Half were fallen in the first five seconds alone, with the remainder futilely scrambling for their lives. Well trained at such lightening assaults against the Ments, the exterminators caught their terrified prey off guard thus virtually eliminating the Ments’ ability to sufficiently focus and utilize their telekinesis against their assassins.

There were no signs of life left amongst the bullet ridden bodies, so the gunners spread out to find and finish off anyone who happened to still be twitching.

Having had two Ments topple dead onto him, Stowly planned to play dead until confident the gunners had left for good. But he began pulling himself out from beneath the carnage a few seconds prematurely. As the sixth and last gunner was leaving she noticed within her peripheral a body the sole surviving Ment inadvertently let roll off of him with an audible thud.

He knew that he’d been discovered upon hearing the squeak of the exterminator’s boots suddenly turning about and accordingly made his motions toward escaping through the back door.

All four gunners turned and fired, though missing their moving target as their evasive prey swiftly swerved down the darkened back-alley.

But with the gunners at most only fifty feet behind him, he was forced to make a hasty ninety-degree right turn into a twelve foot tall cement wall dead end.

The heavy-breathing Stowly momentarily stood there staring up at the wall before turning to see the gunners slowly corner him into the small confined space.

With his back pressed against the wall and his eyes closed, he did his best to calmly focus his telekinesis, but the sudden surge of fear within was unrelenting and fatally debilitating. The exterminators instantly reacted by firing nineteen rounds into his chest.

Part 3: Corporate Meeting & Briefing

“Either we stop them or they stop us! It’s now pretty much as simple as that!”

In boldly stating such a self-imposed ultimatum, InterTopStandardProducts CEO Peter Stashing was fully aware of the implied confirmation of a last-ditch-effort war of sorts against an extremely small minority of the population—a tiny impoverished portion who all struggle to remain borderline physically and mentally functional on a worrisome day-to-day basis.

“Looks like we might’ve stepped into a pile of our own shit,” board member Gordon Fletcher barely audibly mumbled to an adjacent peer. Sitting at the conference room’s long table seating a corporate elite compliment of forty-eight, he was one of only two members who had long held strong reservations about the Pronetin psychotropic medication being distributed amongst any consumer demographic; but least of all forced upon an uninformed and very vulnerable young demographic enduring formidable mental illness and strenuous artificial psychical abilities.

“Do you have something to say, Fletcher?” Stashing asked with agitation, for he was in no mood for such unsolicited self-disparaging commentary.

“No, sir, I don’t.”

“Because if you have anything to offer by way of progressive suggestion … Like I was saying—it’s them or us; and their collective intensity of resistance apparently is growing with time. More so, there’s troubling evidence that they’re actually infiltrating and therefore threatening most of our bread-and-butter interests, on a regional, national and international scale.”

CEO Stashing stopped talking for a moment before playing for the room recorded audio and video security monitor feed clearly revealing automaton-like junior staff calmly complying with identifiable members of the Ment resistance.

“Extremely sensitive computer-file data have been—and very possibly still are being—downloaded and freely handed over by our own employees who later swear (and pass with flying colours our polygraphs) to having no recollection whatsoever of ever doing so … The utterly stunned and bewildered expressions on those staffers’ faces when confronted with the recordings strongly indicate that they had all been psychically hoodwinked. We do, after all, know for a fact that many resistance members have the ability to telepathically manipulate in just such a manner the normal, general population.”

Then it was suggested by another board member, with evident anxiety and desperation: “But even if just theoretically, those few staff could still very well be Ment insiders or sympathizers putting on a good performance, how can we know for certain?”

Stashing calmly continued, however, “The effected junior staff at issue know full well they’re closely monitored and recorded as such, and they also know full well the most severe consequence of willful betrayal. There’s simply too much for them to lose.”

Part 4: A Smaller Meeting of Ments to Discuss Matters

As per usual Bryan was the first to arrive while noticeably punctual and alert despite his ailments. Although his schizoaffective disorder was treated fairly successfully with the Pronetin (having consumed it for almost thirty-one months), simple existence remained a struggle. To the Ment resistance’s advantage, he was immensely proficient at detecting an approaching exterminator, regardless of one’s wearing of a masking helmet.

To connect and arrange a meeting with his relatively close-knit group of five Ments Bryan organized via telepathy the other four and all readily agreed upon a time and place.

To avoid risking the safety of family members all AWOL Ments avoided contacting relatives over the years, therefore resistance members couldn’t be reached by way of the conventional grid system.

The other four answered to Bryan’s communications, though not nearly matching his more advanced psychical degree of clarity and intensity, thus all coordinated to rendezvous at the designated location. Not coincidently it was a site actually quite close to the Corp’s Vancouver head-office tower, for who’d expect such prey to gather so nigh their enemy’s home turf?

“Great, you made it, man!” Bryan greeted Jessie somewhat sarcastically, since he was the fifth and last to arrive.

Fluent in speaking and writing both English and Arabic (as were his parents), Jessie had that same morning finished writing to Mom and Dad a basic I’m-doing-okay letter in an archaic form of Persian. Having it covertly reach them through its exchange amongst three pairs of hands, took up most of his morning.

A frustrated Peter eagerly initiated a discussion regarding finally and even permanently procuring for all Ments at least some semblance of a normal life.

“We’ve got to work a lot harder on exposing those bastards—to prove to the Norm population that their Corp-sourced primary food supply can be just as detrimental to their health as a daily pack of smokes!”

“Much easier said than done, Pete,” Bryan intervened patiently. “The entire global conglomerate, not just the local Corp, has the mainstream mass media effectively in its back pocket. And it’s said that in a democracy the news-media acts as does a baton in a tyranny.”

“You’re being defeatist, Bry,” Peter stated with sincere belief. “I think we could do it, with sufficient organization.”

“I’m not being defeatist, but rather realistic. Having said that, though, we still must do our very best at trying—to give it literally our all. And the last time we met, Terra was quite correct in emphasizing that the Corp knows that the resistance knows too much about their monetary and power interests. Furthermore, we can accomplish a great deal against those same interests, especially if we all set our minds to it, so to speak.”

Rather than snicker at the unintended pun, all five stared ahead into the empty air before them while in deep contemplation.

“But first and foremost,” Michael finally broke the brief silence, “we’ve got to go after the news-media, like Bryan said. They’re definitely the primary concern for us right now—the upper-end talk shows in particular—as long as they remain Corp puppets.”

Terra concurred, strongly voicing herself: “We must focus on forcing out the truth. Everything must be completely bared to the mass audiences, about the insidious menacing mass production and distribution of InterTopStandardProduct’s recklessly genetically engineered foods. We’ve got to force, by whatever means, that information out of the horse’s own mouth; to force that horse’s mouth to admit to the public at large that the Norm consumership—ninety-five percent of the population—is being spoon-fed a serious health hazardous variety of designer food products right from the shelves of their neighbourhood grocery stores … Accomplishing something other than that, in all practicality we’ll have gotten nowhere.”

Part 5: The Chase

He must’ve turned his head a hundred times in that downtown back-alley to gage how far behind they were in pursuit. Forcing him to flee for his life the two exterminators were only forty meters behind, firing off a few rounds at their prey here and there. With the two gunners’ infrared night-vision goggles they also had the advantage of any early-morning stark darkness they’d run into.

They also held the additional advantage of hunting a Ment who had seemingly sealed himself into a jumbled emotional state of terror, essentially negating any chance of him calmly focusing his telekinesis sufficiently to counter the two exterminators in any way.

            They’re catching up, raced through his panicked thoughts. They’re catching up!

The loud popping of occasional gunfire continued—he even heard a round buzz right past his ear—until he had completed the last ten meters to the back-alley exit. There, however, he found that he had no choice but to take the chase into the store-front-strewn street so as to make his way to the back-alley in the next block.

Regardless of the presence of a handful of late-night onlookers, the gunners continued their pursuit, as those Norm pedestrians would simply duck out of harm’s way (perhaps while they’re under the illusion that the sought extermination would likely be for the betterment of the collective normal ‘working’ populace).

However, on the other hand, the chased member of the resistance may encounter a Norm citizen who will behave actively sympathetic towards a Ment in a dire situation. For example, observing that the totally unarmed extremely desperate human being’s two bloodthirsty pursuers were fully geared and brandishing assault rifles in action, such a heroic Norm would get involved by assisting the fatigued Ment in accessing a hidden location. Although very rare, such good-Samaritan acts were in fact occurring in such inhumane times due to the minute yet still growing cynicism amongst some Norm citizens towards the plethora of frighteningly hateful anti-Ment propaganda being readily disseminated en masse. The latter fact was why the technical staff at an independently funded and operated genetic-research laboratory offered their albeit-covert pro bono assistance until it was destroyed by an unsolved bombing.

But upon this night and deathly chase the Ment prey had no such heroic efforts performed on his behalf thus he’d no choice as to where to flee. The road construction methodology of three decades prior dictated that he’d have to riskily run the illuminated street one block in order to make its adjacent, darkened back-alley. He was but twenty meters onto the open street when the gunners abruptly turned the corner behind him.

Their powerful weapons released a succession of armour-piercing slugs and their accompanying pops as about a half-dozen pedestrians huddled down against the storefronts thus creating a clear path through which the gunners could continue firing at their prey. It very much appeared that the two hunters wouldn’t be hindered by anyone from imminently shooting down the Ment, then claiming the night as a success.

They fired another nine rounds his way before he could reach and turn the next street corner. From there he ran directly towards and along another back-alley just a short half-block over; then having traversed that distance he dashed across yet another street, where just a few moments’ chase ensued before the prey turned hard into one final back-alley.

The situation there was notably different, however. It extended in near darkness for as far as the eye could see, although there were a few points along its way where he could try his luck with a back entrance to some late-night business.

With the exterminators just about to turn hard into that same back-alley the Ment prey managed to slip into an ajar back door which he promptly locked behind him. He had entered a bustling, noisy video arcade from its temporarily unoccupied backroom; yet, so casually did he hurry past game enthusiasts that momentarily he was already out through its front entrance and quickly mixed amongst a dense crowd along a busy street.

Easily blended in with the large group of partiers, he uneventfully made his way back to the tiny bachelor’s suite that he called home.

“By the very whiskers of my lucky stars,” he, the hunted Ment, muttered just before dropping onto his cot in total exhaustion.

Part 6: The Ment Turncoat Deathly Challenge

There’s definitely that ugly feeling again, a borderline panicked Bryan regretfully reassured himself.

Stopping at Statsen Street and 47th Avenue, he slowly rotated about ninety degrees at a time, while both visually and mentally scanning the busy-looking crowd of a couple dozen or so people. But on the surface of things there appeared to be nothing noticeably notable.

Irregardless, he plainly couldn’t at that moment isolate the precise source of the psychical trace emitted, as he suspected, by a suppressive Ment turncoat. From whomever it was emanating, it was a relatively weak extremely low frequency (ELF) brainwave that an astute and potent Bryan was sensing.

            There it is, againjust like before. He had to acknowledge what he’d undoubtedly just sensed in relation to a similar experience about two years prior. The guy’s signature was barely distinguishable, even though he was only a couple meters behind me. It has to now be another suppressive … Maybe even the same one.

Bryan made a sudden left turn onto Statsen and conspicuously speed-walked to Terra’s apartment complex, three city blocks away.

He’d just arrived at the base of the cement stairway leading up to the complex’s front doors and was just lifting his boot onto the first stair when the Ment turncoat suppressive finally struck like a snake’s bite, very sudden and hard. The guy had been stalking Bryan for the last two-and-a-half hours, and successfully enough so due to the skilled turncoat’s means of stealthy brainwave suppression.

Bryan felt the full impact of something hollow though large and metallic, knocking him a good four metres to one side, leaving him considerably stunned in every sense of the term.

“Jesus,” he lightly groaned as he gradually arose, verbally communicating to someone he hadn’t yet seen but knew was there. He then added, “I felt you a bit there for a while, but just barely.”

Standing on his own again, Bryan turned to see exactly he who had nailed him straight and for good measure. “Ah, I thought so—a garbage can,” Bryan noted. “I’m lucky it was empty; it must be garbage day. It’s you, isn’t it.” He slowly turned until confirming the identity of his assailant, a renowned turncoat telekinetic who was standing firm immediately before him.

“You’re Daniel, I take it. You’ve changed. Your size—a bit bigger; and your hair’s blonde—it used to be jet black.”

“Well, naturally many things change,” Daniel replied smugly, for he felt overly confident that he held the advantageous higher ground. “Then there are things that must change, rather like a chameleon, in order to maintain a steady flow of ‘doing business’ and … ”

“I had a hunch it was your stench somewhere close behind me,” Bryan cut him off with intent rudeness. “But why you and me, again?”

Solidly on foot again, he remained fully aware that he must very soon mentally select something in close proximity and sufficiently hurl it hard as a projectile take out Daniel with permanence. Meanwhile Daniel did likewise, scanning his environment for an equally lethal object to launch at Bryan, indeed heavy enough to knock him into eternity.

“And here I thought I’d already taken you out, what, a couple years back,” Daniel boisterously asserted. “But, no, you had to be tough as nails … Well, there’s definitely not going to be a third-time’s-a-charm, Bryan; there’s simply too much money to be earned, or other things lost if I fail yet again.”

They both then locked their glares onto the very same object, with the very same aim in mind, as it leaned against the brick wall of the apartment complex. It was a heavy chain-locked, very large framed mountain bike—an effective enough metallically solid projectile as could be expected to be accessible in that part of town (short of an overkill automobile toss that would attract far too much attention).

Then “Bry?” came the sudden unexpected voice, down from an open window up on the third floor. From right above him, Daniel instinctively looked up at Terra, whose head was protruding out. “Who is he, Bry?” she queried.

Unlike Daniel, Bryan, the true opportunist in life-and-death matters as he’d always been, kept his mind calmly focused on the mountain bike. Daniel, on the other hand, belatedly realized his fatal error just before returning his attention to where the bike had been stationed still. The fully attentive and thus totally advantaged Bryan already had the bike telekinetically thrown at over 100 kilometers per hour into his chest and head.

The powerful inertia from the lion’s share of the bike’s metallic parts, including its heavy bike-locking chain and padlock had virtually entirely taken off the turncoat Daniel’s forehead.

“Oh, God!” Terra gasped then wept. She had been left utterly stunned by the surprise assault and kill, although she’d always tried preparing herself for such an exchange of seemingly inevitable inhumanity. “Who was he? Did you know him?”

In order to look up at the upset girl, Bryan had to force away his own stare from the turncoat’s badly bloodied and broken body laying at the bottom of another cement stairwell.

“Yeah, I somewhat knew him, I guess,” he finally replied. “His name was … Well, it’s not even worth mentioning, now. But he was quite the talented suppressive-for-hire willing to severely screw his own kind for some morally corrupt blood money.”

Part 7: The Ment Resistance’s First Hard Strike Back

Bryan repeatedly looked down at the sixty tickets in his hand for that evening’s live-audience Steve Nasher Late Night.

He had just procured them from the Ment version of Deep Throat—a Norm-community Corp insider who deeply sympathized with the resistance’s desperate situation. The distribution of all live-audience tickets was supposedly tightly controlled by the Corp; in fact, CEO Peter Stashing’s right-hand man, vice president Mark Larent, ensured his boss that all tickets definitely had already gone to highly paid suppressor turncoats. But unbeknownst to both men was that VP Larent’s guarantor of ticket distribution security was herself a resistance mole solidly entrenched within the Corp’s upper echelons.

The Ment resistance carefully planned to effectively utilize all sixty seats to enable the most psychically potent Ments, including Bryan, via mental manipulation to outright force the show’s featured guest into stating some actual insider facts however damaging to mega Corp business interests.

While at the mercy of the determined minds making up the entire live studio audience, the Corp’s Mark Larent will directly face the most important major-network cameras broadcasting live as he’s openly discussing InterTopStandardProduct’s corporate plans, though of course following the intended fine filtration of the discussion content by its PR people.

Suddenly Bryan felt exceedingly excited over the fact that it’s actually the Steve Nasher Late Night show, with over a hundred million viewers, from which the public at large (assuming the planted Ments are successful) will hear from the horse’s own mouth all about the Corp’s parent conglomerate’s factual plans for large increases in genetically engineered food production and distribution. By collectively focusing their telepathic abilities spiced with a moderate amount of telekinesis directly upon Larent, the Ment audience members are confident that they’ll force the oral truth from him.

Ironically, on the surface of the matter very few Norm TV viewers would mind Larent wearing a masking helmet for protection against just such psychical manipulation from covert-action Ments. However, because of even the slightest potential for unpredictable negative public perception resulting from just the least bit of appearance of Larent perhaps having something to hide could become detrimental to Corp interests. A masking-helmet-donning Larent might even end up being perceived in much the same light as that of the Corp assigning masking-helmeted guards to stand by the studio entrance, if not right inside.

As for individually distributing the tickets, Bryan, having reasoned that it’s crucial the sturdiest sixty “psychical Olympians” (he termed them) make up the entire live studio audience, knew exactly to whom they’d all go. He could clearly sense their considerable potency during the large ‘underground’ meeting about a year prior. He soon afterwards psychically contacted all sixty to inform them precisely where and when to meet, then exactly what actions to perform at that most vital event. There, he’d give each one a ticket, while not having to verbally explain any details, etcetera. The sooner and the more silently that all the tickets were handed over to each, all the safer thus all the better.

Irregardless of his psychiatric medication’s effectiveness, due to his uniquely enormous responsibilities Bryan’s anxiety still left him somewhat edgy; and it took some extra effort to limitedly suppress his racing thoughts, particularly those of the more negative-scenario sort.

However, he’d habitually instantly remind himself, the very art of thought suppression is for one to simultaneously maintain a useful ability to continue receiving some of the other telepath’s thoughts plotting against you; otherwise much, if not all, of the purpose will be defeated.

Part 8: The Steve Nasher Late Night Show Offensive

The assigned sixty Ments arrived outside the studio reasonably in advance of the doors opening and casually formed into a line-up. They asymmetrically showed up at various uneven points in time and in normally seen numbers, most being as couples and trios of laughing friends, so as to not appear out of the ordinary in any way. And as expected, there wasn’t a masking helmet in sight.

Soon enough the doors opened, and the line of excited-looking people began moving forwards into the enormous studio structure.

With all finally seated, they gradually increased in uncomfortable anxiousness, for this event was so far the most crucial moment in the Ments’ entire lives. Indeed, their anxiety climaxed with each feeling as though his or her heart pounded with the intensity of five dozen adrenalin-rushed hearts. About twenty minutes later came the point at which a stage employee told the audience members that the show was to begin in precisely five minutes.

When the huge digital-countdown clock mounted near the top of the towering wall way up behind the show’s host and guest seating platform indicated in red ‘00:00’ the following second saw ‘APPLAUSE’ light up in its stead.

As per normal everyone in the audience obliged the sign’s instruction as host Steve Nasher enthusiastically walked onto the platform, the latter holding two comfortable chairs and a small coffee table before them on which stood two glasses of water.

Everyone again obliged when the sign changed to read ‘SILENCE’.

“Tonight, we have a special guest,” the host heartily announced. “Mark Larent, vice president of the booming InterTopStandardProducts conglomerate corporate empire.”

Once more came the ‘APPLAUSE’ with Larent walking onto the platform smiling wide, shaking the host’s hand then seating himself. When the ‘SILENCE’ came up the second time the live-studio-audience Ments prepared to commence their assault.

“Mr. Larent, the corporation you’re with has made some astonishing breakthroughs in the exploding new industry commonly referred to as genetically-enhanced food products. The first thing that may come to the food consumer’s mind is, ‘That sounds kind of scary.’ What is your response to that?”

“Well, Steve: first I want to thank you for having me on your show.”

“You’re quite welcome.”

“As for your good question, I would like to answer with a question of my own: If average- and low-income families could have twice the amount of safe, healthy food on their table for half the price, would it not make a lot of sound common sense for the product consumer to be greatly in favor of that?”

“Well, of course, but … ”

“And doubling the product’s accessibility to every household at just half the normal price is exactly what we’re doing.”

That was the queue for the Ments in the studio to press their psychical ON button.

Collectively closing their eyes for a moment each imagined that he or she was in fact vice president Mark Larent and literally could only speak and disclose the truth on the matter—to only straightforwardly answer questions and offer factual insight and information, and all in their entirety.

“What we at InterTopStandardProducts have for years planned and produced are the … are the … are the … ”

In utter bewilderment and with no forewarning, Larent betrayed a contorted, confused expression on his face as he continued talking: “ … are the are the results of what our own conclusive study findings have clearly indicated are in fact detrimental effects from the genetic engineering we perform upon our food products.

Seeing the unparalleled shock on Larent’s face was the most wondrous experience for the dozens of resistance members making up the live audience, not to mention the delighted much larger portion of Ment society viewing the event on TV.

Even so, again the Ments briefly closed their eyes to refocus their imaginative thoughts.

“You mean to say, Mr. Larent, that there actually are such recorded conclusive study findings?” a rather astonished Nasher queried him. “Could you please elaborate as to precisely what you mean?”

Clearing his throat, a seemingly forced Larent went on to state that, “What I mean is … is … is thatis that it has been revealed to us the genetic engineering has … It has been revealed to us that … ”

“What exactly has been revealed, sir?”

Larent simply could no longer at all suppress his wagging tongue and instead blurted out, “ … that the genetic manipulation we perform has, for one thing, cancer-causing side effects.”

Stunned into momentary silence the show’s host looked wide-eyed at his dumbfounded guest, who openly appeared so disorientated from the intense brain invasion it seemed that he might even pass-out. As planned upon such a successful outcome a preselected half of the studio audience Ments began to shout insults at Larent, booing him, as the other half remained relatively calm while glancing around at their vocally boisterous peers in order to maintain a facade of non-conspiratorial conduct.

“Fucking slime!” one shouted as another blared, “What gives you the right to screw like that with our health, our lives, when we trust you with the food you sell to us!?”

“Yeah!” shouted others. “What gives you the right!?”

Realizing that he’d been mind-manipulatively duped by some potent telepath resistance members almost certainly within the live audience, Larent post haste left the studio through the backstage exit while encircled by bodyguards, before any further damage was sustained by the Corp’s public relations that night.

            How the hell was this allowed to happen?! raced his still stunned and rather numbed thoughts as he wiped beads of sweat from his brow with the back of his hand. How the fuck did they get those Goddamn tickets?! People are going to answer for all this come Monday morning!

But deep down inside his weary mind the VP somehow knew that the war—and not just this most major of battles won against them—has likely been lost. Indeed, the beginning of the end.

Part 9: A Great Revelation

Just over a week after ITSP vice president Mark Larent learned from his ex-wife that their only child, a son of eighteen years, was diagnosed with a most severe form of schizophrenia, CEO Peter Stashing received a vicious blow upon hearing that his daughter of sixteen years was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer, likely due to her extensive consumption of genetically modified food products—ironically all of his own indirect making. And all even as much as he’d lied to her and fed her lines of twisted up tangled webs of deceit he’d weaved in order to give her sufficient cause to completely avoid consuming such forged foods. But to avoid ‘needlessly’ worrying Dad she kept secret her source of diet; something along the lines of his secret, and him trying his best to scare her away from such foods without committing the corporate unforgiveable sin of openly directly warning literally anyone about that very same model of foods.

As would be expected, there was to be truly progressive change, however small initially, within the upper echelons of InterTopStandardProducts Inc.

“My name is Peter Stashing, and I am Chief Executive Officer and board president of InterTopStandardProducts Inc.,” he began openly honestly stating in a global mass audience broadcast.

“For approximately the preceding two years as of about seven months ago, we had made widely public proclamations regarding scientific breakthroughs involving food-product genetic modification, or more bluntly referenced as ‘genetic engineering’. These research findings were extremely profound as to their beneficial effect upon our conglomerate interests and shareholder dividends—all effective on a global scale since the very same research was relevant across the planet. However, when implemented these same research breakthroughs, we’d also discovered, would also bear very costly human tolls: This meant that, although the fruits of the new form of genetic modifications translated into food production being quantifiably greatly enhanced, the potentially permanent detrimental effects of this same new form of mass food production on the consumers’ health would also be substantial. I am almost entirely referring to the considerable increase in the number of terminal cancer patients. We at InterTopStandardProducts Inc. suppressed these likely catastrophic consequences from our massive consumer base, across the entire globe …

“Perhaps out of plain corporate economic-interest convenience, we had convinced ourselves that the ‘trade-off’ between the large numbers involving food-consumer benefits, with the large number of cancer victims and their sufferings was somehow ‘well worth it’.”

“The sole impedance we faced was from a negligibly small number of very young people from within the mental health community; more so, they were persons enduring psychosis entirely caused by the far more insidious elements of our genetic modification program, and thus they were essentially forced without exception—if they wished to find any relief—to consume only our new pharmaceutical anti-psychotic medication, Pronetin.

“However, the psychosis was actually shamefully a byproduct of another insidious, covert gene-manipulation program of our conglomerate. These very young people, these citizens, had developed psychic abilities—largely telepathy and telekinesis—to which they were predisposed since conception due to our scientific interests and efforts. As these people, indeed our test-subjects at that point in time, aged into their late teens, the psychical abilities enabled them to not only gain access to substantially sensitive corporate information but also the capability to strategically force corporate employees, as we would repeatedly discover, to publicly reveal on a grand scale such information so eminently damaging to our conglomerate interests.”

He then paused for a moment before continuing: “During all those years that these great injustices took place, however, our top research teams had hypothesized then proved by way of scientific measurement that there is yet another most amazing psychical talent beheld by this same very small segment of society. But unfortunately it carries with it an extreme burden, one in which so-called normal society solely reaps the immeasurable benefits and one about which until now the world’s enormous populace would not know …

“Through that extensive research we discovered—and reconfirmed those results three times—that the measurable mental stress and thought disorder intensities of the average non-mentally-ill person significantly reduces, if not dissipates altogether, when that person is in proximity to a person who is suffering with severe mental illness but, crucially so, is also reasonably well enduring the illness’s symptoms, however formidable. In fact, we have found that the more severe the symptoms suffered by the ‘mentally ill’ test-subject the greater the reduction in the mental stress and thought disorder intensities experienced by the ‘normal’ test-subject.”

Likely needless to mention, every clinically mentally ill subject participating in the major study scored very high on the ESP scale.

“In summation, if it were not for the tiny minority of the world’s population who suffer with severe mental illness the vast majority of us ‘normal’ folk—those being the societally functional dominant demographic who are not diagnosed with such a debilitating mental illness—would in fact be unable to function properly with regularity. In other words, we’d be unable to sleep, work, play or enjoy life as we typically do.”

Part 10: The Conclusion of an Ordeal

With the collapse and bankruptcy of InterTopStandardProducts Inc. and almost the same for its parent OneWorldTopStandard Inc., also came the near loss of its patent for the Pronetin medication.

By way of three separate jurisdictional court orders the medication’s core elements were “revised” thus transforming it into a considerably more effective anti-psychotic medication, freely and confidently prescribed by most psychiatrists. As for the Ments almost all acquired and maintained confidence in the medication’s new formula, which was no longer forced upon them.

Not readily admitted by them as a collective there were some who’d miss the psychical abilities they’d lost after the banishment of the original Pronetin formula, regardless of the inhumane manner in which its consumption was originally forced upon them still being fresh in their memory.

The remainder of the lives of all post-liberation Ments held some forbidding demons within; however, for the members of the actively participating Ment resistance simple existence after their ‘war’ was anxiety-ridden too much of the time.

To not be misunderstood, though, the belief that they’d no longer be in the crosshairs of hired exterminators granted them great relief, even if still somewhat on edge in an instinctual-survival-mode manner when, for example, surrounded by a bunch of strangers at a crowed shopping mall.

Of all those well-employed at ITSP, as it turned out, fate hit CEO Stashing by far the hardest and most permanent; in fact too devastatingly for him to come to terms with the major blow: He hanged himself in his basement the morning after his daughter succumbed to her cancer.

Not at all surprising when considering the dismal statistics, a disproportionately very large number of Ments had also committed suicide over the years, almost entirely due to unrelenting psychological turmoil.

Most of the Ments—who as a whole didn’t mind being referred to by the formerly resistance-linked label in the occasional media story—kept in touch, even often meeting to fully enjoy a cup of gourmet java rather than deeply worrying about being assassinated upon, say, being cornered in some back alley by masking-helmeted Corp-procured gunners. It was finally their chance to be as normal as they’d perhaps ever be.

Frank G Sterle Jr

Ode to the Venusian Burn

(completed December 2, 2013)

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“Inertia, noun: (physics) a property of matter by which it continues in its existing state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line, unless that state is changed by an external force.”

—The New Oxford Dictionary of English

THEY trained six twelve-hour days per week for two and a half years at NASA’s interplanetary facility in Houston, Texas. They worked hard to prepare themselves for any contingency mission obstacle during the first manned landing mission to Venus, prepped to commence during the precise point at which Earth and Venus are at their closest proximity to one another (a.k.a. “inferior conjunction”) at 22.8 million miles, which occurs only once every 584 Earth days.

Although it wasn’t readily available public knowledge, the U.S. military and NASA had integrated into a single entity eleven years prior (in 2041 AD), but most of that integration was in the form of joint ventures and other interests; as a side effect of sorts, astronaut rank titles converted to military terminology. It was American military powers-that-be which actually strongly pushed for the first manned landing mission to Venus—that is, once the tremendous news about Venus became fact.

The mission planning was initiated following reliable spectroscopic measurements taken during a very rare event almost six years earlier (on January 14, 2046), during which Venus passed directly between Earth and the sun. Utilizing a spectroscope while Venus’s atmosphere was brightly lit enabled astronomers to observe the components of its atmosphere. (The previous such event occurred on July 26, 2012.)

In combination with the informative spectroscopic measurements was valuable data amassed from two unmanned Venus probes’ transmissions consisting of meteorological and other informative readings, including those of geological significance. They all convincingly indicated an exponentially expansive mellowing of the otherwise deathly toxic and uninhabitable Venusian atmosphere and surface environment.

There was an approximate ninety-eight percent cessation of sulfuric-acid rainfalls and unstable, inhospitable climate related storms, plus a humanly unprecedented, relatively extreme cooling of the planet, especially its surface, to a temperature comparable to that of an average day’s weather within Earth’s most intensely heated and dry location, eastern California’s Death Valley.

All of the grand-scale changes on Venus were the result of highly electrically charged atmospheric layer or barrier completely surrounding the spectacularly transforming planet.

The said atmospheric canopy began its protective-element accumulation in both thickness and density immediately upon an also unprecedented extreme occurrence of a succession of coronal mass ejections from the sun, particularly focused upon the region of the solar system incidentally occupied by Venus. During the potentially catastrophic (e.g. to human life) solar event, the massive blast ejections from the sun’s corona exceptionally received by Venus procured anomalous, expansive element reactions and composition alterations throughout Venus’s atmosphere and surface environment. (Unlike the other planets in the solar system, Venus and Earth beheld significant atmospheres. Unlike Earth, however, Venus lacked a strong magnetosphere, which made Venus all the more susceptible to the coronal mass ejections.)

Thus began the Venusian rebirth—an exponentially milder, life-form-tolerant surface climate and atmosphere (albeit, at first just barely so).

Of course, all of the said astronomical facts and much more were well known by the crew of five who’d undertake the imminent, big-history-making mission. In order of rank, they were: (Captain) Cranley “Lee” Morseler, the space mission pilot who was also in charge of the successful first manned landing mission to Mars; (1st Lieutenant) Elaine Chen, the mission navigation specialist and medic; (2nd Lieutenant) Ram Philander, the engineer and specialist in short/long range sensor technology (e.g. high-velocity space-travel projectile-collision-course advance warning system); (First Sergeant) Petter “Pete” Zorkolov, the mission spacecraft’s nuclear-powered engine specialist and Venus lander pilot; (Sergeant) Anna Anstoni, the chief (Level-3 status) medic and lander pilot.

It normally took approximately 260 Earth days for Lee and his (different) fellow crew aboard a conventional-fuel powered spacecraft to reach Mars during manned landing missions there, launched during Earth’s closest (solar orbital) proximity to Mars, which occurs every 1.6 years. The last such mission to Mars utilized a high-speed transfer orbit and made the trip in only 130 days, from January through to May, 2052; though, while having to burn the conventional fuel rocket engines longer, consuming considerably more of the weighty standard fuel.

“It’s the precision timing of planetary solar orbit positioning that deserves the bulk of the credit,” Lee typically commented to news-media before and after missions.

Although the Venus mission spacecraft, christened the Venusian Burn, also utilized conventional fuel thrusters—for manoeuvring, 50,000 mph or less velocity burns and to power the lander, itself christened the Bunsen Burner—the long range travel to Venus was powered by a seventy-six second, spectacular thrust burn from a state-of-the-art Hyper-accelerated Nuclear-particle Controlled Detonation Propulsion engine (or NCDP). It functioned on laws of astrophysics governing quantum and temporal mechanics; a ‘super-charged’ concept developed, successfully tested and then finalized for advanced high-speed space travel, almost entirely by NASA’s chief astrophysicist and astronomer, Dr. Abraham Torkworth: “Within a .01 second period, a twenty megaton nuclear detonation creates: first, a blinding flash of intense light along with fierce radiation; second, an expanding fireball blast reaching a temperature of 11,111,093 degrees Celsius; third, the blast extends outwards two to four miles from ground zero while also creating pressure measuring twenty-five pounds per square inch and winds in excess of 650 miles per hour.”

Dr. Torkworth then got to the main point of his entire explanation, which was in its totality published and broadcasted worldwide. “The exact same energy output intensity per unit of time and space as a conventional twenty megaton nuclear detonation is achieved, though constricted within a tightly controlled methodology; however, the controlled detonation—as the first of its kind in that it utilizes temporal mechanical manipulation physics—is actually extensively ‘stretched out’ over time and space. On a relatively miniscule level, time is actually slowed down, while spatially the great blast is simultaneously, significantly extended and narrowed, as it is confined within an unprecedented solidly-reinforced tubal configuration containment chamber. Extending the spacecraft’s entire forward-to-rear hull length, the containment chamber is an incredible 181.25 meters in length and 9.85 meters in diameter—a perfectly circular, huge-pipeline-like thrust-energy projector. It has been created from intensely irradiated titanium in order to exponentially increase the capacity tolerance of the controlled-nuclear-detonation combustion-tube casing. As I’ve already strongly hinted, to achieve the required focused intensity of engine thrust in order to reach the desired velocity, involves a considerable manipulation of space-time. My team and I have attained such manipulation through the hyper-acceleration of the atomic structure of bomb-grade uranium radically far more enriched than was normally produced many decades ago during the Cold War. Our most notable breakthrough, however, entails the utilization of a highly energy saturated electromagnetic field that is always in full-effect proximity to the enriched uranium during the entire mission. Thus having supercharged with massive amounts of electrical current to a critical point where the enriched uranium’s atomic structure is hyper-accelerated to a far superior velocity than ever achieved before—with due credit, of course, belonging to the discovery and successful utilization of the faster-than-light-speed tachyon particle—for the first time in human history we have successfully procured matter motion at a velocity not only equal to, but even a bit beyond the formerly unattainable universal ‘speed limit’ for all electromagnetic energy, precisely 186,282.397 miles per second. At the human level of visual comprehension, this light-speed-barrier breaking uranium atom hyper-acceleration seems to occur simultaneously with the controlled nuclear detonation, even when in reality the uranium atoms are reaching light speed and then faster than light-speed velocity a mere .00024 seconds prior to creating the controlled detonation effect,” Dr. Torkworth continued.

“As such, literally slowing or ‘extending’ normal time is therefore made possible and, more important, then fruitfully utilized by NASA astrophysicists in enabling the temporal extension effect to go on to manipulate the great amount of space otherwise overtaken by a normal-time, twenty megaton, non-controlled nuclear detonation. Successfully extended and narrowed to a mind-boggling degree—all due to time dilation—we thus have the ability to amaze and stun so many minds as well as observers witnessing a successful ‘nuclear burn tail’ extending as firm and straight as a smooth steel pole, almost 2,100 miles directly behind the spacecraft. Without any embellishment on my part, I can accurately state that to actually witness it, especially with only the naked eye, may truly be required to allow all people to believe it as scientific reality!”

As extraordinarily violent as they were, the solar-flare storms still didn’t make any noticeable impact upon Mercury, the planet with no atmosphere but in closest proximity to the unrelenting storm-driven sun. Venus, however, was a very different matter and remained in an extremely volatile situation:

Its borderline maple-syrup dense atmosphere being rich with a unique combination of elements enabled a freak astronomical event to occur. The planet endured violent solar-flare thrashings due to the sun’s vicious storms, thus greatly irradiating Venus as it rotated 360 degrees on its axis only once every 243 Earth days; in fact, the Venusian daily cycle was even longer than the 224.7-Earth-day Venusian solar year.

Regardless of the fact that only about a half of Venus was absorbing the coronal mass ejections, the enormous impact upon that half was more than sufficient to fully effect Venus’s atmosphere and surface environment in their entirety. Thus NASA’s Torkworth explained: “The whole of Venus was nevertheless proficiently extensively irradiated as was necessary to create such an incredible, almost complete about-face in regards to its normally deathly toxic, totally uninhabitable, let alone just inhospitable, conditions.”

The scheduled manned landing mission to Venus would advantageously utilize valuable experience and lessons-learned gained from the manned landing missions to Mars, the last one taking place just three weeks shy of six years prior. Plus, the fact that the Venus mission would be led by the same fully competent person that was in charge of the much accomplished Mars missions, Captain Morseler, also procured from everyone directly involved with or just avidly following the latest news about the “amazing, expeditious Venus endeavor much confidence and an enthusiastic, ‘good-to-go’ attitude” (the U.S. president’s words).

Obviously, though, there was no fortune-telling crystal balls, literal or figurative, through which to know for a fact whether it’s truly good to go ahead and launch, to just delay the Venus mission or to indefinitely scuttle the entire mission.

But mostly unknown to the public at large was that the vast majority of the news-media ‘let’s go to Venus, now!’ hoopla was itself insidiously coordinated by the U.S. military on behalf of its own (also unknown) interests.

The military had vast fiscal, scientific and tactical stakes involved with the successful direct contact by state-of-the-art astrophysical technology with the fantastically altered Venus, most notably its recent detoxified and first-stage terra-formed inhabitable atmosphere and surface environment. It was conveniently arranged, for example, that the mission team’s number-one priority, i.e. an “official Pentagon command instruction,” was to gather samples of various forms of matter, be they in gaseous, liquid or solid state, especially matter that was significantly affected through molecular restructuring by the unprecedented successive massive solar-flare storms or, more accurately, coronal mass ejections.

The military’s scientists wanted to thoroughly examine the effects of the solar energy bombardment of Venus’s elements, from both a macro and micro perspective, ranging anywhere from planetary to atomic scales. The scientists anticipated that the massive blasts of the sun’s corona upon Venus—in energy, heat and radioactivity—were the result of tens of millions of individual hydrogen chain reaction explosions occurring in unison.

Other than for a few top brass Pentagon officials it was completely unknown to everyone on Earth—and most disturbing, the uninformed populace included the Venus mission crewmembers—that military interests and stakes, by way of the military chain of command itself, trumped the safety of the five brave men and women making up the always risky interplanetary trip. “A major backfire involving another massive solar assault on Venus—although, this extremely large one will be far greater in quantity of solar radiation since it will consist of more successions of coronal mass ejections bombarding Venus—is about eighty percent certain to occur within the following seven months” (the one-to-another words of an unidentified pair of Pentagon officials).

Having funded the most expensive aspect of the mission that being the Venusian Burn’s finished space-worthy product, the NCDP drive engine, the military expected to also benefit from multiple aspects of whatever was learned during the mission. Considering that Venus’s atmosphere and surface environment have been altered into initial-stage inhabitable status, albeit through extremely extraordinary means of solar radiation bombardment, a successful manned landing mission to Venus for extensive examination may be akin to actually holding the key to enabling life out of lifelessness.

IT was a smooth, thirty-four minute sky-shuttle taxi ride for the tightly-knit five Venusian Burn crewmembers getting from Cape Canaveral and up into Earth orbit, to the rotating Grace Sky Station. (Amongst the seventeen other space stations in orbit, this one was named after the late Grace Lyrynth, who created the schematic for the largest, most extravagant and technically well-equipped space station ever constructed in Earth history.)

Having received their first close-up look at the Venusian Burn’s external features as the sky-shuttle taxi slowly approached then locked-in with Grace’s docking bay, left all five basically thinking the same things, i.e. that spacecraft will require only 29.75 hours to get us to Venus utilizing the first hyper-accelerated nuclear-particle controlled-detonation propulsion engine (more commonly referred to by its acronym, NCDP). They were to travel at a record-breaking top speed surpassing three-quarters of a million miles per hour.

As dictated by the laws of physics, the momentum-propelled rotation of the station produced the requisite centrifugal force and artificial gravity for the proper function of the enormous structure, well-quipped with spacious recreation facilities serving various pastime tastes and comfortable living/sleeping quarters, etcetera. The five crewmembers would spend three weeks there to, amongst other matters, fully familiarize themselves with the vast spectrum of functional and technical aspects of the mission spacecraft, as well as its lander.

“Wow! The grand size of the engine is unbelievable!” Pete notably enthused. “Amazing!”

Having been seated at their reserved table, three of the other four glanced at him, smiled, then went back to savoring their vegetable lasagna entrees. The sole abstention, 2nd Lieutenant Philander, was settled into his antique collector’s book of poetry as he normally was while eating lunch. “Hey, guys, I’m reading some seventeenth century English ‘Romantic’ verse by a famous poet—John Keats was his name—and one’s called ‘Ode on a Grecian Urn’. How about that? It almost sounds as though our new ship was christened after it or the poem was titled with The Venusian Burn in mind, even though the ship was over two centuries yet in the making.”

At the end of the crewmembers’ three week stay at Grace Sky Station, Earth was at an inferior conjunction position with Venus, the closest point of solar orbit proximity between the two planets, and thus it was time to launch—along with a build-up of expectation and excitement.

When the last of the daily medical examinations confirmed that all five crewmembers’ physical and mental health were “in the go” for the scheduled launch, they boarded the Venusian Burn and cross-belted themselves firmly into their seats within master control (i.e. the spacecraft cockpit), with each going over his/her systems checklist twice.

With everything double-checked in the positive and fully prepped for the initial NCDP-engine burn, Lee, with station approval, released the spacecraft’s docking-clamp seal and produced a slight maneuvering thrust to take the Venusian Burn about a hundred and forty miles out from the station. There’s always a likelihood that an extra distance will be placed between the two, but being the very first NCDP burn ever, ‘better safe than sorry’ was definitely the prevailing logical approach.

Dr. Torkworth correctly theorized and calculated, even before the first test-burn of the NCDP engine, that the controlled nuclear detonation would create a hazard free, low level shockwave moderately noticeable only within a hundred and five mile radius.

“As for the ‘nuclear burn tail’,” Torkworth confirmed, “as long as it is pointing in the other direction, so to speak, all should proceed nominally. But be assured, however, the farther away the Venusian Burn reaches, the back end of the ‘tail’ will also diminish in direct proportion into the darkness of space” (the tail having been calculated to stretch behind the spacecraft a distance of 2,091 miles).

With the spacecraft ready for the ‘big one,’ the crew all placed over their noses the specially designed oxygen masks specifically intended for a totally unconventional propulsion system such as that about to be utilized for the very first time by recorded history humankind.

Venusian Burn to Grace Sky Station,” the captain transmitted. “We’ve completed systems checklist twice as per protocol, and we’re good to go. Ready to commence sixty-second countdown to engage the NCDP drive, upon your approval.”

“We read you clear, Venusian Burn. All of us here wish you five, the best of the best, a super fast NCDP blast,” stated the jovial voice from the station. “This is Grace Sky Station saying, over and out.”

As the final ten seconds lapsed with great anxiousness for all involved, the crew of the Venusian Burn firmed up their mental and emotional focus.

“ … Nine, eight, seven, six … ,” the voice from the space station continued, with Pete simultaneously affirming into his com, “Engaging NCDP drive commencement sequence.”

“ … Five, four, three, two, one, ignition.”

As the Venusian Burn’s space-time bending, controlled detonation nuclear thrust engine engaged, from its very first one-hundredth of a second of atomic activity—which was extended 275-fold longer (or at least perceived as such by the real-time human mind) due to the hyper-acceleration of enriched uranium particles to a trans-light speed—the NPCD drive had already began what was to be an even better performance than that which was considered until then to be the best-case scenario.

The initial, anticipated effect procured by the engine’s unique deployment of intensely manipulated nuclear energy, on the grand scale of twenty megatons, was a 2.75-seconds-long vacuum of all air pressure and thus sound energy throughout the entire Venusian Burn spacecraft. Instantly following this effect was the gradual climaxing of the NCDP drive’s full engagement, during which the crew experienced humankind’s greatest defiance of the rigid laws of physics governing inertia.

For the countless people watching on big screen TVs or through state-of-the-art telescopes, though especially those lucky enough to be standing by one of the many large windows on the Grace space station, the magnificent spectacle of the blazing NCDP-engine “nuclear burn tail” extending far behind the almost instantly long-gone Venusian Burn, left all awestricken.  This all falls short of mentioning that the NCDP burn was also visible from Earth’s surface, by the naked eye, if the viewer was far enough away from well-lit areas, such as major cities.

Upon completion of the NCDP engine burn, which lasted for a hundred and seventeen seconds, Lee said the very first post-burn words, with a grin.

“Well, we’re all here and in one piece; apparently we didn’t vaporize by way of uncontrolled nuclear detonation. Manned landing mission to Mars, eat your heart out.”

Laughter and cheers then rightfully erupted.

The greatest thrill, however, for the Venusian Burn crew and NASA employees, when the transmitted news reached them back home, was that when the NCDP engine became fully alive as intended, it actually delivered the spacecraft a bit beyond its anticipated maximum velocity, quantified by its navigational computer as having been an additional 11,217 mph.

AS was anticipated by NASA, the first eight hours of the 29.75 hour trip were readily consumed by the crew making various equipment preparations aboard the lander and technical adjustments on the Venusian Burn’s more sensitive instruments; even the NCDP engine “required some tweaking” (Pete’s own ‘tech’ terminology) during Hour 5 involving thick electrical-power-flow lines feeding into one of the four, large electro-magnetic-field generators. As well, the long range sensors briefly required half-hourly testing to ensure their ‘shipshape’ status, enabling them to detect any object of literally any size visible to the naked eye in the spacecraft’s high speed trajectory.

As directed by the universal law of odds and the theoretically infinite size of outer space, the trip was uneventful as far as collisions went … until Hour 9.

“What the hell was that?!” Lee blurted out, rhetorically, instinctually stunned by what he immediately suspected was an external impact. Sending a slight shockwave reverberating throughout the spacecraft, though particularly along the portside of the Venusian Burn’s midsection hull.

“If it was an angled or even a ninety degree collision course impact, the sensors could explicably have missed it by way of malfunction blind spot.”

“Yes. Quite possible; and in this case, even likely,” Ram concurred then, sporting a slight grin, glanced over to Pete while adding, “The sensor unit probably requires some of Pete’s tweaking.”

Each crewmember was noticeably disturbed by the unexpected impact, an emotional reaction amplified by the unprecedented extreme high speed involved with the mission. Elaine promptly checked the spacecraft’s systems gauges and other relevant meters, suspecting that any serious damage would likely involve a heavily insulated high-voltage conduit.

“There’s nothing indicating that we received any serious damage; even so, obviously there needs to be exterior examination and evaluation,” she noted. “Should I go out for a look, captain?”

“No, I think I’ll go for the nice spacewalk, this time,” he said, freeing himself from his seat. Being zero gravity, he floated up out of his chair then pulled along his drifting body through the spacecraft corridors, to retrieve a repairs kit and then suit up right next to the decompression chamber, with its two hatch doors.

The last time he made a spacewalk was on the way back to Earth from a manned landing mission to Mars. There was that very small O2 leak through the outer hull skin, he recollected, while securing his spacesuit helmet to go through the decompression-hatch exit procedure. Regardless of how small the leak, he was nervous, it being only his second spacewalk. I wasn’t as fearless as so many believed

With the Venusian Burn and therefore Lee alongside it, travelling at 766,386 mph or 212.9 miles per second—even with the NCDP engine burn completed for almost nine hours—it nonetheless would be impossible for anyone, even a seasoned astronaut, to notice any movement at all. Such an inertia of the hyper-speeding spacecraft and Lee, with only a loosely drifting tether connecting them, is possible because of a total lack of matter resistance—be it sliding, rolling or fluid friction—in vacuous outer space.

Lee then began engaging his equipped spacesuit’s small guiding thrusters in brief spurts to gently move him along the Venusian Burn’s hull siding while shining a bright light onto the metallic skin to locate and repair the almost certain damage.

Upon reaching the minimal damage on the hull siding, Lee inspected a small impact crater within the siding’s skin and a piece of meteorite about two-thirds of an inch in diameter embedded within. Although the repair wouldn’t even take him twenty-five minutes, Lee was well aware that only during the preceding thirty-four years were all spacecraft designed and built with their entire outer hull reinforced with extremely resilient, high-impact-tolerant absorption material, like that of the Venusian Burn. He knew that astronauts, like himself, owed much—some even their lives—to such advanced-tech hull-skin shielding.

“Ah, yes, people; it’s a very small rock, guys, in … Panel-J8,” he transmitted to the other crew. “It shouldn’t take long at all; plus there’s neither indication of actual nor potential non-visible damage. I didn’t think there’d be any, since the impact thunder wasn’t as great as it wou …”

The information that the captain was transmitting to the others was sharply cut off, though it was replaced by a few seconds of eardrum-rattling radio static.

“Lee? … Lee, is everything alright?”

Looking at the other crew, who hurried to master control after hearing via headset her alarmed voice, Elaine again transmitted her concern: “Captain, please respond … Is everything alright out there? What’s your situation, sir?! Captain Morseler!”

“Quickly, look outside through every porthole window—in every direction possible—until you spot him!” she asserted to the other three, beginning the rushed lookout with her own efforts, while anxiously repeating every dozen seconds her transmission for Lee to reply.

It wasn’t quite two-and-a-half minutes later that Anna alerted the others that, “I can see him! He’s out there, right by the portside midsection … Panel J5! He’s not readily in view, but he’s out there. Outside here, just a few meters below the window. And he’s drifting horizontally; something must be wrong! Maybe his oxygen tank breached or … !”

The others then hurried over to Anna’s location, seeing for themselves Lee’s apparently lifeless spacesuit, with the helmet face-shield tilted away from the crew’s view.

“I’m going out to get him, now, while he may still be helped!” Elaine emphatically proclaimed.

The three other crewmembers looked out through portholes as the tethered 1st Lieutenant Elaine Chen spurt thrusted herself over to the motionless captain.

Upon reaching him, she was left notably stunned and disturbed by the golf-ball-size hole in his face-shield and even worse, after rolling him over, the baseball size hole through his helmet’s backside.

“He’s dead,” Elaine solemnly relayed to the others. “It was a second, unlucky hit by a small meteoroid. I’ll bring him in for a closer look. If you’re able, Anna, I’d like you there to assist me. I guess we’ll … We’ll be opening up the morgue. What a f——g lousy piece of luck for the mission log! Almost the very worst, guys, I would justly say … ”

DURING Hour 22, acting-1st-Lieutenant Ram Philander, under the watch of Elaine as acting-Captain, received seriously disconcerting sensor readings. They clearly revealed that, once again, a succession of massive, extremely violent coronal mass ejections were mostly focused upon Venus. Thus once again unimaginable, planetary-scale atmospheric and surface element composition alterations of enormous significance were reversing Venus’s progressive environmental advance back to “twice the deadly poisonous hell rock it had been prior to its unprecedentedly rapid naturally terra-formed inhabitability” (Ram’s words).

“Captain … Captain, please wake up,” Ram urgently requested of his senior officer.

Gently rubbing her eyes, Elaine, likely unable to imagine mission-matters getting any worse, somewhat incoherently muttered, “Why? What’s … What’s wrong, now?”

“There are massive, consequential solar events occurring that just our basic visual enhancement scope-monitors are picking up vividly, because the sun’s coronal activity is so severe,” Ram bleakly informed her. “And all of our instrument readings are confirming everything from the visual enhancers.”

“Exactly how massive and severe? Are we in immediate danger? Never mind,” she said, throwing herself out of her bunk. “I’ll meet you in master control, ASAP.”

There, everyone was wide-eyed alert and active, doing not only that in which he/she specialized, but also performing (to the best of their ability) tasks at which other crewmembers were the best though momentarily too busy to perform themselves.

“Take a look at this sensor reading,” Ram implored Elaine to look for herself. “It’s showing the massive coronal blasts’ spiking levels of multi-spectrum radiation—all of which are way off any scale; and they’re laying the worst beating upon Venus probably since the development of the solar system, itself. And look at these computer enhanced visuals of the solar coronal blasts … Unbelievable!

As for the catastrophic (definitely for Venus) solar events’ effect upon the planet in closest orbit around the sun, Mercury, being positioned in the aphelion sector of its eighty-eight-Earth-day solar orbit (and farthest from the sun) at the time of the coronal blasts plus facing the non-violent surface portion of the sun, it therefore bore almost no exposure to the extremely intense radiation bombardment.

The solar blasts focused almost entirely on Venus, it again being within the segment of its 224.7-Earth-day solar orbit during which it was directly facing and absorbing the coronal blast surface portion of the sun.

With Hour 25 coming to a close, Elaine queried Ram about the latest status of Venus.

“Captain, multiple sensor scans have been reading excessively dynamic activity between the sun and Venus. In fact, all indicators point to a second significant Venusian element composition alteration taking place—and, apparently, it’s all for the worse.”

While emphasizing that only nine years prior Venus had “miraculously evolved”—via the first unprecedented succession of powerful coronal mass ejections—into a mostly inhabitable environment, Ram noted that “the present devolution will likely take the planet back in the other direction, and even much farther down on the toxic-environment scale.”

“Holy s— ,” mumbled Pete, in utter awe. “What could be causing all of that? Sure, I over-studied mass coronal ejections in university astrophysics courses, etcetera, but nothing Armageddon-ish like what’s happening here.”

Obviously very much needed was the crewmembers’ constant observation of the sun’s coronal blasts’ negative effect on Venus’s atmospheric and surface environment; plus, the Venusian Burn team needed to assess, via their advanced-tech solar-activity monitoring computer software, whether the spacecraft could be taken in close enough to accurately evaluate the entire critical situation.

“If the fierce coronal blasts are in fact an extremely serious threat to our security, we then must decide exactly how we’ll go about doing a one-eighty rotation in order to get back home—perhaps even to just escape an astral disaster with our lives,” Elaine commenced the serious talk, with Ram concluding it in her stead by making reference to the ‘gravity assist maneuver’ or ‘swing-by’ (for short).

“We must first mathematically calculate how we’ll enable Venus’s gravitational field to grab us, swing us around half of the planetary body—though unfortunately the half currently being spectrum-radioactively thrashed by multiple coronal mass ejections—and sufficiently catapult us back, away from Venus and the sun. From there, through the utilization of our stabilizer and trajectory thrusters, we should be able to again plot a course along which we’d do another NCDP burn in getting home.”

No more than six seconds of silence lapsed before Elaine spoke as acting-captain. “We’re currently at … Hour 27.2,” she noted, looking down at her North American Eastern Standard Time synchronized timepiece, “and we need to make the precise calculations ASAP, then immediately act, while not cutting by a single second into Hour 28.”

“That gives us only forty-eight minutes to take action,” Pete pointedly stated. “How in hell can we adequately prep ourselves within that meager amount of time—not even an hour!”

“Engage retro-thrusters, gradually and with caution, to seventy-five percent capacity, until we’ve reduced our velocity by eighty percent,” Elaine ordered, with which Pete agitatedly complied. “What’s the current condition of the Venusian environment, by which I mean, is the regression of the planet’s inhabitability continuing, and if so, at what rate and scale of severity?”

“It’s exceedingly volatile and increasingly so; it’ll fully toxify within the next ninety minutes,” Ram informed her, as he simultaneously also did the other two attentive crewmembers.

“But more to the point, captain, those are intensely radioactive coronal blasts that we’re nearing, well known to readily cause actual biochemical damage on the human body, and our electro-magnetic shielding was not designed and developed for such radioactive-energetic proton solar explosions of this great magnitude!”

Anna then anxiously added to the facts of the mind-numbing matter at hand.

“Plus, let’s not exclude the fact that, right now the sun’s peaking in ferociousness and solar-flare-burst frequency in relation to its eleven year solar cycle!”

With all astrophysical law and sensor scan data having been considered and calculated, followed by the Venusian Burn’s primary navigational computer plotting a trajectory and velocity run toward Venus for a gravity assist maneuver, the acting-captain again spoke. “According to our main navigational computer’s two hypothesized scenario outcomes, Venus’s strong gravitational field will either sufficiently and safely swing us around its equator a hundred and eighty degrees, then allow us to break free into the opposite direction; or, quite frankly, it’ll tear our hull apart like it was just a child’s model spaceship, even before a half-minute passes. I guess we’ll just have to hope for the better of the two possible outcomes.”

During Hour 29:

While in the process of attempting a gravity field swing-by, the Venusian Burn had all of its electrically powered systems blown by a power surge caused by the violent solar activity raging in close proximity, thus the spacecraft was rendered irreparably inoperable.

With the Venusian Burn’s maneuvering and stabilizer thrusters fried, Venus’s gravity-well easily grasped and pulled the spacecraft down through the planet’s once again densely toxic and totally inhospitable atmosphere only to burn up.

The very violent death and tremendous loss of Captain Cranley “Lee” Morseler during Hour 7 of the mission when his hull damage inspection spacewalk fatally met with a small meteoroid about the size of a golf ball, smashing through his helmeted head at a velocity of twenty-six miles per second was in itself demoralizing enough to say the least. But the remaining crew’s misfortune only advanced with the accidental electrocution of acting-Captain Elaine Chen, after she came into direct contact with extremely high voltage wiring during Hour 29.

At the time of her electrocution, she was making emergency repairs to solar-panel power storage units connected to the Venusian Burn’s twelve super-high-capacity batteries, normally fully re-energized with far more than enough excess, intense energy accumulated from the powerful nuclear propulsion engine. (It functioned on much the same energy physics principles as the antique-collectors-item internal combustion engine alternator.)

Although not fatally wounded, acting-1st-Lieutenant Ram Philander was permanently blinded, along with some 2nd-degree facial burns, only a couple minutes before the attempt at a gravitational swing, trajectory reversal.

Having been hit hard by an explosion straight into his face of otherwise harmless boiling temperature steam, Ram was medically tended to by Anna and heavily sedated to sleep away the initial intense pain from the burns.

“Ram’s gone, too!” Pete firmly informed Anna, as the alarm sirens blared, so as to keep her mentally on her feet. “The medical unit got fried, and gone along with it is Ram and a sizeable chunk of the rear, starboard quarter—all only 30 seconds before I would’ve been right in the middle of it! I think conventional fuel tank number two must’ve ignited. We’ve got to get to the lander before the other tanks go! Come on, now, Anna!

With the Venusian Burn’s discouraging failure in its attempt at a gravitational swing due to a coronal blast that passed nearby thus disabling all of the spacecraft’s electrically powered advanced-tech primary systems, acting-2nd-Lieutenant Pete and acting-First-Sergeant Anna decided to abandon ship aboard the lander, Bunsen Burner, lest they go down Venus’s gravity well with the Venusian Burn.

The plan was to have the lander make the gravitational swing, then after to direct the Bunsen Burner on a course back to Earth utilizing its maneuvering thrusters and limited computerized precision trajectory guidance system.

As the critical situation urgently proceeded, Pete and Anna promptly boarded the Bunsen Burner and spent a minimal amount of time check-listing the primary systems only.

“We’ve no time to go about doing things according to protocol,” Pete ordered. “Strap yourself in, secure, and prep for immediate ten-second countdown to launch … ”

With the lander’s two conventional (i.e. non nuclear powered) thrusters taking it out of danger proximity to a potential massive Venusian Burn explosion, Anna wiped away a couple of tear drops from her cheeks and rhetorically asked, “How could so many things go so wrong, so many times, in the same day?”

“I know … But we’ve got to focus on returning home, now, or at least die trying. Hopefully my calculations are accurate,” he said. “Now, punch in vector coordinates 227.26 by 738.93, and engage main drive thrusters to full power.”

Meanwhile, instead of exploding, the helplessly crippled Venusian Burn was seized and dragged down into the planet’s deathly dense, acidic atmosphere and expeditiously began burning up. Using its own energy-field sensor instruments, the Bunsen Burner’s trajectory was keyed in with intention to take them toward and then along the outermost rim of Venus’s gravity field, where they maneuvered the lander to ride with the planet’s gravitational pull.

However, the plan went terribly wrong, with the sudden sounding of the proximity alert, causing their heart rates to spike.

“I must’ve errored in my calculations and skewed the trajectory guidance computer’s interpretation of its own sensor readings … We’re much too close to the planet!” Pete desperately, fearfully exclaimed. “I don’t have enough time to re-calculate an accurate vector coordinates adjustment!”

And he was quite right.

“We’re caught in its gravity well!” Pete distressfully informed his co-pilot, just as they were attempting a ‘pull-up’ maneuver; one that hopefully would quickly correct and stabilize the Bunsen Burner’s imminently fatal level of descent into the atmosphere, then finally becoming an ascent back up into orbit.

Initially, the lander’s thrusters engaged to begin a climb out of the atmosphere, and doing so, though causing notable vibration, began effectively stabilizing then reversing the Bunsen Burner’s imminent burn-up entry into the Venusian atmosphere. But as they gradually reached upward into a safe orbit, all thrusters cut out, dead, due to sudden fuel loss; even brief exposure to the atmosphere’s sulfuric acid had rapidly breached the lander’s three otherwise firmly fortified fuel tanks.

Absorbing tremendous heat created by the abrasive atmospheric friction for a brief endurance before total, final burn-up, Anna gently held onto Pete’s forearm.

“It’s getting really hot,” she said, though unsure whether she could be understood, while maintaining her straight-ahead stare the entire time. “I really thought this was going to be a mission of a thousand lifetimes. All it did was end with … ”

DUE solely to typically very rare coronal mass ejections from the sun, Venus had environmentally transformed from its eons-long, deathly uninhabitable state, to a stunningly surprising (though relatively very brief) hospitable status, then all the way back to its intolerably bad condition—and then some.

The solar blasts and mega flare storms did eventually fully subside approximately eight months later, although political caution dictated that Venus remain off of NASA’s and the U.S. military’s astronomical and scientific interests menu.

Pentagon officials were summoned before a formal inquest committee investigating ‘alleged’ military suppression of the foreknown likelihood of such a devastating outcome of the Venus mission as had occurred in the tragic worst case scenario. However, no Pentagon official was ever made to answer for his or her costly silence in regards to what they knew about a potential astronomical disaster, and when did they know about it?

(Frank G Sterle Jr)

In All Due Fairness

LISTENING to her teenage daughter’s recorded screams, the distraught mother could not contain her grief. With heaving sobs, she stood to leave the courtroom, only to have her weakened knees buckle and collapse onto the courtroom floor.

Heartfelt gasps came from many in the audience (while some other spectators she’d suspected to be but heartless voyeurs), as the bailiff, district attorney, and even defense council, rushing to assist the bereaved woman. Slowly, gently facilitating the trembling frail woman to her feet, the three courtroom officials somehow misperceived stability in her pale expression and gradually pulled away their hands. But she was so shaken by the prosecution’s key evidence—that of the accused’s own trophy audio-video of her only child’s last tortured hours alive—she fell hard, flat unconscious.

The night she was kidnapped, the desperate mother had locked her daughter out of the house in an attempt to correct the otherwise average girl’s increasing tendency to breach curfew. It was the first (and tragically final) time the mother had, still with much reluctance, attempted such a tough-love measure. Only it had gone the most horribly wrong.

By all accounts, the mother had been a fine parent, as was the girl’s father; although he, until then healthy, had died suddenly of a massive coronary less than a month after his “little princess” had been prolongedly tortured, then murdered in the worst way.

The girl’s assailant had caused her all the real hell any parent wishes against their child ever having to nightmare about, let alone actually instinctively enduring for the sake of surviving the atrocity, only to be snuffed out at day’s end anyway …

And that was when and what appeared to have been the last straw.

Suddenly everyone on Earth was aware of an unprecedentedly profound Great Change, and one that would become a far better existence than just moments before. The planet-wide awakening was a massive shift that would finally find favour for the most materially, physically, mentally and spiritually poor people of all.

For starters, the change found every fortunate person forced, as though by true magic, to empathically share in the anguish suffered by the greatest life-sentence affliction that Fate can cruelly, yet with cold apathy, reserve for a parent—a child lost to a torturous death. Now all bore a tiny portion—thus one sometimes imperceivable—of that enormous emotional turmoil otherwise suffered solely by those individuals who’d received the lottery-jackpot-odds lousiest of parental luck. All they had left in their bleak lives, indeed the only reason to drag themselves out of bed every morning, was to do their very best to ensure their children’s tormentors and killers—if or when they were caught, tried and convicted—never again freely roam the streets seeking their helpless prey.

In rehabilitative return, those most unfortunate parents who’d suffered such unjust extreme loss, inexplicably felt very great relief from their overwhelming affliction. Their trembling hands slowly left their tear-streaked faces, for their heavy hearts no longer suffered the agony alone.

With the supernatural change, however involuntary, when all shared in such a terrible personal toll, it became a literal—rather than just the common figurative—sharing of grief. It was analogous to a fiscally imprudent national government that had invested a large sum of treasury funds into an eventually losing deal; but with the shortfall shouldered by the large collective citizenry, the burden on the individual taxpayer was so much greatly lessened, if not unnoticeable.

In spite of it being but a most basic natural human survival instinct, the continuation of one’s own genetic lineage, a motivation accurately described as a self-serving Only If It’s In My Own Back Yard mentality, would (perhaps in a poetic sense) have been the great character flaw eventually resulting in societal humankind’s inevitable self-destruction. Literally everyone on the planet had been helplessly genetically enslaved to this since-conception Darwinian lead ball and chain, although a very tiny number of exemplary human beings—most notably of the Mother Teresa, Dalai Lama, Mahatma Gandhi and Martin Luther King kind—could and did greatly resist that sadly selfish aspect within themselves but naturally couldn’t eliminate it in totality.

Notably, the change also saw that the clinically diagnosed formidable mental illness normally suffered by a small minority of human beings was henceforth equally shared—thus greatly diminished by the individual lifelong poor in spirit—by the vast majority of heretofore emotionally secure people. All who’d suffered persistent consistent chronic psychosis, obsessive-compulsive disorder, bi-polar disorder, nervous breakdowns, debilitating depression with inescapable crippling hopelessness, suddenly found inexplicable but oh-so-welcomed great and long overdue relief. And the relief was especially appreciated by those who’d been regularly haunted by disembodied yet seemingly so real voices and images, as they no longer agonized so intensely, so lonely, invisibly imprisoned within their own tormented minds.

Yet perhaps the greatest change was that through which all people who’d intentionally caused physical and/or psychological suffering, henceforth they justly yet involuntarily sustained the most bitter of the forced empathy: Suddenly, if one took the cruel liberty to sexually violate another, in greatly shocked bewilderment the rapist simultaneously suffered the very same tearing sensation of his own violently invasive act, thus leaving him with no option but to self-servingly retreat in agonizing pain, however mysterious in origin. Indeed, it brought profound physical new meaning through actuation to the profane verbal directive, ‘Go fuck yourself!’

And if one blindly with contempt spewed out racist or any of the many other bitter forms of venomous bigotry towards another person unprovoked, he personally experienced the very same emotional pain intended for the innocent recipient. And if a man had shot another person, he then experienced the very same great pain and terror suffered by his victim, rather than just the newly typical universal tiny share; and, by just extension, if one gratuitously harmed a harmless stray animal—a neighbour’s benign beloved pet being the example considered, (non-human) animals being intellectually incapable of malicious acts simply for the sake of malice—the offender thus experienced both that animal’s suffering as well as its owner’s emotional anguish. Thus the only remedial action was always to wholeheartedly—with genuine empathic remorse—apologize to the victim and without any doubt never again commit such a recklessly callous offense.

Regardless of how minor the bad deed, the perpetrator was always left experiencing, through forced simulation, the precisely same resultant physical and mental turmoil. Furthermore, it quickly became realized by all that, even without the unfortunates’ and victims’ awareness of the unexplainable sudden change, their cause was still equally endured in due fairness by all fortunate persons and perpetrators. In fact, soon put into newsprint was the old-school journalistic mission statement: the comfortable were being empathically afflicted, while the afflicted were contrarily comforted through similarly empathic means.

Rather than being specific thoughts invasively transmitted and received, it was loosely comparable to an expecting husband’s sympathy pains suffered for his greatly labouring pregnant wife.

Even academics agreed it all was akin to everyone having been spontaneously cerebrally re-hardwired to literally share in others’ dreadful suffering, like so many undisturbed antennas suddenly receiving the immensely distressed signals from a few isolated agonized antennas.

Many secular humanists theorized the Great Change was simply the good within humankind itself psychically coming to long-overdue overpowering conscience terms with the disproportionate injustices suffered by some but not by most others. The majority, however, assumed it was implemented by a kindly sentient omnipotent source. This was defined by monotheists as God, and by polytheists as multiple powerful spirits; while others believed greatly advanced caring alien-race monitors were responsible. Indeed, numerous sci-fi fans were reminded specifically of the Star Trek: Voyager episode titled ‘Unity’, in which a moderate amount of controlled selflessly compassionate “collective consciousness” would actually be a desperately needed mentally and physically beautiful healing measure, in place of an otherwise always  horrific result of the insidiously evil ugly Borg drive at assimilating all humanoid species.

Of course the change was also well received by many other worldwide examples of disproportionate suffering, notably that of desperately poor citizens of developing nations wanting for the most basic of life’s necessities. In fact, great empathic relief was felt long before the arrival of overflowing shipments of water purification devices, as well as the exponentially larger quantities of food and medicine than ever before—all gratefully given by the prosperous nations because the planet’s privileged people were abruptly enduring what had consumed the world’s most needy for far too long. And in return, the fortunate givers felt physically and mentally so much better.

Although initially the otherwise fortunate felt indignant by the change, that they’d done nothing personally wrong to justify the unfavourable empathy, soon it no longer felt like an imposition but rather a universal effect in which all were naturally wanting to treat all affliction, just as though it was in fact one’s very own turmoil.

And contrary to the usual human-history pendulum swing of ideological and political mood, the Great Change was a permanently solidified authentic sense of others’ upheaval, therefore no chance would remain of all reverting to the unjust existential norm of yore.

(Frank G Sterle Jr, written in 2008)

The Stan Spike of Regret and Rage

“Absolute zero: (noun) the lowest temperature that is theoretically possible, at which the motion of particles which constitutes heat would be minimal. It is zero on the Kelvin scale, equivalent to -273.15oC.”

—The New Oxford Dictionary of English

SURROUNDED by the five bullies just a few feet off of school grounds, Stan Spike was clearly agitated by their taunts. As for their kicks and punches, however, he inexplicably felt no pain whatsoever. He then verbally assaulted them with insults involving the females in their lives. “As usual, all of you guys—Rick, Danny, Kenneth, Mitch and especially you big, bad ol’ Grant—have me physically outgunned, but all of you also have mothers and sisters and girlfriends who make all of my weekends supremely euphoric! Wow! All of that before-brunch, sweet Sunday morning sex!” Once again, they began beating him. That would be the climactic point at which he’d usually awaken, around six mid-morning, from the nightmares with the five punks from his festering past, still lingering vividly in his mind.

Attempting to lie comfortably on his psychiatrist’s couch, Stan sporadically shifted slightly from side to side while relating significant aspects of his dysfunctional past. As he’d done monthly for over a decade, he emphasized the skewed mentality behind the rearing he’d received as a child before slipping into his bullied teens, then finally his burdensome young adulthood. He related his troubling memories in a nonlinear manner, jumping about his earliest though solidified memories, then back to the present followed by years in between.

Nevertheless, the session foremost revealed formidable consequences resulting from a distorting lack of fatherly trust in him as a young boy, in addition to unjust “blame trips” (Stan’s words). Also revealed was how his bewildering abuse of his adored pet cat created fertile ground for a later-to-come entrenched acute guilt complex, and the unobstructed bullying by five peers during high school resulted in a large accumulation of anger.

Stan’s psychiatrist confirmed that the seed of his problems definitely originated with his father’s unachievable expectations of him as a prepubescent boy; a lad who therefore understandably misinterpreted Dad’s distrust in him as but a consequence of his actual incompetence.

Such matters continued unhindered year after year, especially with a mother mostly intimidated into silence by her husband regarding her own worries over the boy’s future.

As an eleven-year-old sitting on his dad’s fishing boat moored at the local wharf, Stan was particularly annoyed by the sight of another boy two years his junior showing full confidence in him by his trusting father to move their fishing boat around the wharf. The younger boy, the son of Stan’s dad’s closest friend, confidently competently handled the steering wheel, forward/reverse gears and throttle, all as he himself deemed fit. Not surprising, Stan took the demonstration as yet another bitter pill handed him by his overly anxious father.

“It really made me angry—even embarrassed,” Stan told his psychiatrist.

“My dad never ever would’ve allowed me to handle his boat in any way even close to … to the way that kid was … ,” he choked out, barely maintaining his composure.

“Just the concept, alone, of placing such trust in me probably made him nervous. Damn! … I now see with clear hindsight that Dad never consciously meant me any psychological harm and that he would’ve done things differently if allowed to relive it all. But even so, I’m still left extremely frustrated and angered by it all, and that’s putting it mildly … Considering the trust and authority placed into that kid’s mind by his mentally sound father, I’d bet the kid went on to accomplish great things in his life. But my father seemed to actually anticipate that, if allowed to handle his boat—or anything else requiring competence, for that matter—I’d surely screw up or at least require urgent intervention by him. ‘No, no—you do it this way.’ And having been told so and treated as such enough times for enough years, I started mistrusting my own self! No wonder my brother completely avoided Dad’s presence all those years, and that I’ve essentially been rendered unemployable for lack of belief in myself.  In retrospect, I’m not at all surprised that I spent so much of my life in my room, alone, reading a bunch of books!”

Most disturbing, however, Stan had also developed a problematic contempt for himself.

Also, through his father’s thorough verbalization of his inflexible perception of persecution committed against him allegedly by various powerful and corruptible societal institutions, Stan developed his own version of just such a persecution complex.

The boy’s susceptible malleable mind had readily absorbed over a prolonged period the poisonous persecution paranoia, amongst the other said dysfunctional thought patterns, like a dry sponge squeezed tightly then released while submerged in filthy bathwater.

Although to Stan the hours of his troubled life seemed to wearily drag on, eventually arrived the time for his anxiety-ridden entrance into high school. The frequently malicious environment there consisted of regular doses of nasty attention focused upon him—a disproportionately large share originating from a group of five male peers who could smell his fear and low self-confidence two hallway lengths downwind from him.

As of his first day of Grade 8, Stan endured two school years of hell before dropping out and entering a GED-equivalence program, though the two years were reduced by fifty percent. That time absent was spent “skipping out” at his sanctuary, SeaTac International Airport by way of public transit. There, he greatly appreciated the much needed peace of mind he received while fantasizing about flying somewhere, a great distance away, preferably the Orient; high school on home turf had simply become that unbearable for him.

Even when Grade 9’s end did finally arrive, it was to Stan a tall hurdle over which he’d barely leapt but only to find an obstructive rocky road for his trek into indefinite-length future territory. That past high-school ordeal would permanently remain a notable dysfunctional future factor; yet it was burdensome baggage of which ‘normal’ guys would’ve just let go no later than graduation.

More worrisome, it was baggage packed to the hilt with acrimonious resentment and even sporadic rage that often was inwardly focused; and it was more than enough to expand into an over-compensative aggressive attitude. Put another way, Stan maintained a mental scores-to-settle list, with the five high-school bullies at it very top.

When Stan was fifteen, his father was devastated by the terrible loss of his fellow fisherman and closest friend of twelve years. He drowned after the pair’s respective vessels capsized off the coast of Washington State when hit by an exceptionally large wave while fishing in stormy weather.

As though the bleak depression compounded by survivor’s guilt wasn’t more than enough to handle already, he also learned that his boat insurance had been voided just six days prior to the sinking because of a freak-occurrence lost check in the mail. Such fluke bad luck was what pushed him over the psychological edge, Stan, his mom and older brother Daniel were told by a psychiatrist upon the emotionally distraught man being involuntarily admitted to the hospital psychiatric ward.

Barely three weeks later, Stan’s mom received a telephone call a few minutes before nine at night in which another psychiatrist informed her that her husband had taken his own life. He’d accessed a janitor’s incompetently misplaced keychain, which included two keys unusually thin enough to fit into the janitorial supply room’s sole electric socket. However, it was shortly later verified that the severely despondent man had actually futilely attempted to poison himself, since a small quantity of toxic cleaning agent was discovered in vomit found in the same supply room … Following the funeral, Stan and his mom promptly moved away from their hometown in the greater Portland region and into a metro Seattle apartment complex. Daniel, on the other hand, kept moving northwards to live with his soon-to-be fiancé residing in Penticton, British Columbia.

EIGHT years had lapsed before Stan accepted the embarrassingly difficult concept of him being unemployable, not even able to competently perform his rudimentary part-time carpentry job. His psychiatrist at that time had agreed enough with his previous doctor’s diagnosis to promptly have him placed onto a government disability pension plan.

He gave much of the credit for that fact to one venomous employer who had verbally and emotionally mauled him for his “fuck ups” at work. That same employer had once asked him whether he’d eventually go on to “blow your brains out” once fully realizing his supposed uselessness to normal laboring society; and when he in bewilderment asked the boss to repeat the question, the same callous words were said.

As his condition but worsened with passing months, Stan regularly focused his accumulating anger upon people he perceived were doing him injustice. Reaching a point of wound-up fury, he began sending nasty letters, which soon metastasized into blatantly insulting, to editors with the two Seattle metro-daily newspapers.

After a few months of one-way abrasive correspondence, he’d tagged six specific junior editors (amongst the two dozen with the newspapers) at whom he was particularly enraged, even letting each know that he was “savvy to your corrupting what should be purely objective journalism.”

At times becoming near ceaseless, his rage also took a twist towards unpredictability and even hair-trigger disposition, effectively resulting in increased frequency of the virulent letters to those same six editors. As even he anticipated, Stan managed to get himself permanently banned from the two newspapers’ Opinion pages. Thus he then became even more enraged by them and their “corporate-owned news-media corruption by way of your insidious manipulation of public opinion.”

Regardless, he let it be known (via final sarcastic email) to those six editors whom he’d targeted as his scapegoats, “that permanently blacklisting me officially under the table won’t silence my opinions sent elsewhere … Proof of the conflicts of interest and therefor corruption is that all editors refuse to publish which corporate entities own the majority of their respective newspapers’ shares. Why? Could it be, perhaps, to maintain an ‘out of sight, out of mind’ kind of ignorance amongst their collective readerships? Or, perhaps, If there’s no tree even falling in the woodslet alone anyone there to hear itit definitely does not make any sound? Or even, ‘No message is the new medium’?”

As a person with no recorded history whatsoever of any past criminal conviction or even simple public misconduct, it absolutely was from him an unprecedented infuriated-outburst behavior.

His perception of persecution by the said editors caused him psychological turmoil and even social-norm disharmony; yet it wasn’t a case of him failing to attempt filtering out the irrational assumptions from his mind. He found that no matter how often and hard he tried to put logic well ahead of his hasty hot temper, he simply could not calm any of the rage, nor even maintain in mind the line quoted by his favorite prolific author, Jonathon Swift: “It is useless to attempt to reason a man out of a thing he was never reasoned into.”

The accumulation of intense frustration, anger, then outright rage with which he’d poorly dealt for most of his life, finally profoundly peaked on the same Wednesday as happened to be both his own birthday as well as the anniversary of his last day of Grade 9 a decade prior.

Shortly after three that afternoon, Stan stood before his dresser mirror feeling helpless to at all interrupt the heavily momentous flow of negative thoughts, misperceptions and violently uncontrollable anger directed towards the six editors whom he’d mentally targeted. Following close behind this tumultuous emotional cocktail of venomous contempt was a sudden psychological climax event that academics would later refer to as “the Stan spike of regret and rage.”

Fuelled by both actual and erroneously perceived significant injustices committed against him by the many named on his long mental list of offenders, his mind was pulled (or pulled itself) deep within his self-created concentrated subconscious intent on enforcing upon others a violent vengeance.

UNTIL becoming cognizant of the fact, Stan had unwittingly stood on the very same spot for almost half an hour, though to him it was a complete timeless blank, before the same dresser mirror. With his mind liberated of all dysfunctional thought, he could for the first time in recollection enjoy an absolute absence of the wildly ugly emotions as well as a zero presence of all negative notions he’d unrelentingly endured prior to that unconsciousness. In addition, he felt an inexplicable strange yet strong sense of resolution—of unequivocal completion.

The following three days of unmitigated clear-mindedness was wholly revitalizing, for the mental relief was so much noticeable in contrast to the years of torment. But it was then succeeded by a stunning breaking story on the local morning TV newscast.

The news was exceedingly bizarre, mindboggling, and quite unique in its horrendousness.

While all six editors, whom to Stan were abusing their profession, had been individually reported missing as of the Wednesday before, discovered just hours prior to the newscast inside each one’s residence or workplace office was unidentifiable dense, discolored liquid (on linoleum flooring or soaked into upholstery, mattresses, carpeting, etcetera) on top of which lay skeletal remains and wet clothing.

In conclusion the news report noted that, “Health authorities will be performing forensic testing this afternoon to both verify the source of the DNA samples already taken from each location while also ensuring that the bio-matter discovered doesn’t indicate a public health hazard.”

Who’s really going to take seriously the insane notion of people turning into funny looking puddles of fluid and skeleton? Stan tried convincing himself with consoling thought. Meanwhile, rather than at all subsiding, his unnerving mysterious sense of resolution and completion lingered on irrepressibly. Ahhhhumbug.

Regardless of the top story’s nonsensical nature, he watched the news channel all morning, afternoon and evening, with only washroom and three snack breaks.

The next morning’s top news-story broadcasted that, “Extensive forensic testing, most notably that of extracted DNA samples, has been performed on what had been deemed as six individual discoveries at a residence or workplace of dense, discolored liquid upon which lay skeletal remains and wet clothing. According to investigative officials, the grisly discoveries are in fact entirely that of human content and have been confirmed to be those of the six men and women, all editors at Seattle’s two metro-daily newspapers, earlier reported missing,” the newscaster stated before clearing his throat.

“Furthermore, it has also been verified that the element makeup of the bio-matter discovered at each of the six locations was in precise proportion to such composition percentages factually found in the human body—nothing whatsoever was missing or added, after taking into account evaporation extrapolation.”

As for how the victims discovered in such an unprecedented state and in separate locations actually became so, even the planet’s most brilliant minds in the fields of physics and human forensic biology were left baffled.

The huge news to date had been sufficiently disturbing for him without the addition of the following morning’s update story. It revealed that, “Utilizing the latest in forensic technology, analysts have ‘positively determined’ that the six victims’ mostly liquefied bodily remains discovered three days ago had ‘melted’ into such a state from an ‘unprecedented near absolute zero’ frozen form. It’s believed to be the lowest temperature found in the physical universe, in deep space. But most perplexing were the bone-core test findings strongly indicating that the victims had been frozen from their very most inside, outwards.”

By the fourth day, Stan was bordering on the commencement of a complete nervous breakdown. What began as mostly a misinterpreted local freak occurrence had been gobbled up whole by every major national and international news outlet. Eagerly reported that morning was the latest bewildering story revealing that the sole cryonics facility equipped with state-of-the-art extreme-deep-freezing technology was situated considerably southwards in Sacramento. But even at that, a Weekly Telegraph story quoted one of the facility’s senior staff as asserting, “We are not in the business of cryogenic extremes anywhere even near -273.15oC or ‘absolute zero’. According to our own technological means—and I’m certain we’ve accessed the latest in ultimate deepfreeze equipment—‘absolute zero’ very much remains a theoretical concept.”

It was then that Stan experienced the most intense sensation yet, one that mentally linked him to the dreadful frozen finality suffered by the six victims.

I’ve got to get this all, get me, checked out right away! he finally decided after much hesitation ever since first learning of the unfortunate grim discovery. And I must tell Cynthia everything, or I’ll get nowhere.

Or so Stan had intended.

Regardless of utilizing the most of her psychic ability, she unwittingly was only able to sense from Stan just enough for him—but not herself—to realize that he was in fact responsible for the half-dozen horrific deaths.

Cynthia resided in the apartment unit immediately adjacent to that of Stan. She offered free, no-strings-attached ESP readings as a psychic to any interested person residing anywhere within the complex. Everyone who accepted her offer was left impressed at her psychical talents, moral conviction and generosity of spirit, for she steadfastly refused any payment in any amount or form (including “donations”).

“Payment corrupts the gift—the ability, the talent, the entire ‘art’ involved with it,” she emphatically proclaimed to all who questioned her lack of capitalist entrepreneurship regarding such a seemingly rare, precious and quite sellable commodity.

Regardless of his great appreciation of Cynthia’s gift and her friendship, Stan didn’t appreciate it when, following a reading that she did for him and his mom, he noticed Cynthia holding back something important about his birth—and at the current peak crisis point in his life, he especially feels that she should’ve told him, or at least Mom, post haste.

But that was water under the bridge, and he immediately phoned her to ask, “if I can stop by for a reading at your place tomorrow, around noon?”

Being a low-maintenance type person like Stan, Cynthia subsisted on a far-below poverty-line government disability pension, though her disability was entirely physical in nature. Even so, she always answered the door extravagantly dressed, “but mostly for full comfort while at home.”

Having dejectedly entered his apartment unit, he willfully let the door slam shut behind him due to the overwhelming guilt he was carrying upon his conscience combined with anger at himself for the enormous suffering he’d caused by way of his apparent “psycho-kinesis.”

A chunk of bitter irony then hit Stan, hard. He recalled how so many times as a boy that he’d fantasized about how “great it would be to do things with my mind, my thoughts—throw around bad guys, or even make their heads pop.” But as he matured, and especially during the previous week, the wise but commonly overlooked (or perhaps more accurate, misunderstood) expression more frequently, in proportion to his aging, came to mind: “Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.”

Cynthia lay comfortably on her large leather couch while reading Pride and Prejudice. She didn’t own a TV or radio, nor did she at all consume newspaper content because “their distortions of reality really depress me,” she’d say to Stan. Turning the page of her novel, Cynthia experienced an unusual, perturbing sensation of fear, far worse than any she’d felt during her entire life; one of devastation that involved only Stan. However, she was left frustrated by her inability to specifically, psychically define that sensation thus placing a hindrance on a significant aspect of her psychic ability.

What she’d always known and therefore often warned Stan about was that his periods of fervently enraged state of mind would always make for hazardous decision making.

Having spent much of his life reading books, such as his favourites Plato’s Republic, Moby Dick and Gulliver’s Travels, Stan replied to Cynthia’s caution, “I think that’s what’s meant by the famous proverb, ‘Vengeance is a dish best served cold.’ And I’m sure that Art of War’s Sun Tzu would agree that one must be sure to make crucial decisions only after taking enough time to thoroughly consider the best response and while remaining void of heated passion. Translation: humans do stupid things when we act out of anger.”

Nonetheless, he would go on to serve extremely bitter cold dishes of vengeance, though doing so while steaming hot with fury.

He found that as his rage subsided, his great guilt was exacerbated to an inversely proportional degree thus adding even more burden to his anomalous guilt complex. Those targets against whom he’d been so uncontrollably infuriated had viciously lost their lives as a direct result, a fact that made him sick to his stomach with every full realization of his editor deepfreeze, regardless of his subconsciously unaware mental state …

Finally came the point when Stan felt it crucial that he immediately leave Seattle for his brother’s cabin up at Rivers Inlet, B.C., by float plane. There, to his immense comfort, would be virtually no people, therefore all but zero chance of being any threat to anyone.

“I’ll simply be too far away from any civilization while I’m up there to do any harm,” he said to Cynthia with noticeable relief on the same day that he left Seattle. He even politely refused her request that he take with him an emergency two-way radio as a risk-free precaution.

“I understand that you want this great physical separation from city life, but why not be in radio contact if an emergency should … ”

“No,” he mildly interrupted, “I’m going it all alone, which also excludes voice transmission contact. Sorry, Cynthia.”

When Stan and his brother were in their early twenties, Daniel would take him on strenuous hikes to Rivers Inlet, with their launch point being Daniel’s fiancé’s Penticton residence. Each hike would take six to eight weeks, during which the older taught the younger Stan everything he needed to know to survive (or “reside,” as Daniel put it), such relative desolation as Rivers Inlet.

To be fully clear, regardless of whether snow lay on the ground, the Inlet was known for its hard-biting cold-climate winter seasons, typically extending from early November until late February.

STAN spent an uninterrupted solitary six years, one month, three weeks and four days at Rivers Inlet before receiving his first human visitation—that of Daniel. Any visit had to be one of surprise, there being no mail or telephone service through which to forewarn of any planned arrival.

Having arrived with all of the supplies and gratuities (e.g. chocolate) that he could muster the will and body strength to haul, Daniel relaxed and conversed with his protractedly secluded brother right after giving him a firm hug.

“It’s all just for your comfort, little brother, ’cause everything you really need to live in this beauty is already here, out there, in this glorious wilderness!” he jovially proclaimed.

Life at Rivers Inlet was pretty good to Stan, until he was stricken with increasingly chronic depression. Unfortunately, any degree of mental illness, let alone such severe cases as his, was inadequately treated in such a desolated region because of the predictably great lack of sufficient number of mental health professionals; thus, he soon was forced to return to a life of potentially lethal emotional upheaval.

Immediately upon his return to Seattle, he already found himself feeling fully reloaded with formidable guilt branching outward in multiple directions, all complicated by self-loathing and accumulating anger. Thus he felt more than compelled to see Cynthia.

“It’s great to see you, as always, Stanley.” Her greeting included a platonic yet amicable hug, which he comfortably reciprocated. Then, immediately upon looking him straight into his slightly smiling face, she noted, “There’s something seriously troubling you, dear; I can feel it. Let’s sit down.”

She led the way to her oddly small kitchen table. As was her usual psychic means, she held both hands while looking deep into his eyes, though he atypically shied away, instead looking aside while slowly pulling back his hands.

Regardless, Cynthia was in physical contact long enough to know his emotional anguish, although not its direct source.

“Oh, Lord, something is greatly wrong. A lot of … too much guilt, isn’t there?” she noted. “Please, Stanley, give me your hands, and please don’t look away; don’t allow any part of your mind to silence the rest. I know that you’ve come to me desperately seeking help, so don’t hold anything back … Oh, Lord, your aura, dear—it’s an absolute mess of what should be mostly orderly light colors, if one’s at peace with one’s self.”

“Yeah, things seem to be bad, very bad,” Stan finally admitted. “I really fear doing something most extreme, possibly the worst.”

Wiping away a few tears, he then covered his face before revealing his mind’s exhaustion and bleak outlook on life.

“It’s like a lose/lose scenario. Either I go mad and kill myself or else end up doing something horrendous to others. I just don’t know what I should do about it.”

Slowly removing his hands from his face, Cynthia assured Stan, “You’re not going mad, and you’re not a bad person. Always keep that firmly in your heart and mind. You were born with a very rare ability, telekinesis; although, unlike my psychical ability, yours took more time to turn itself on. Also, yours is far more energetic, forceful, requiring much discipline; and for you, it definitely means adapting far more self-control over your mental and emotional state of … ”

Stopping herself midsentence, she could feel her psychic instinct increasingly indicating to her that she was actually misreading him regarding the exact nature of his kinetic ability.

Stanley, are you absolutely sure there’s nothing that you’re not mentioning, maybe something you’re overlooking, like some telekinetic event you’ve recently experienced? Perhaps something you feel is minute in significance? Anything at all?”

“Well,” he hesitantly began, “I believe I may’ve … ”

Cynthia then decisively took the initiative to invasively confirm that she wasn’t misreading Stan.

“Please, give me your hands once again … Please, dear, it’s very important.”

Less than a minute later, she’d finally grasped it, or at least most of it. Stan wasn’t just talented in telekinesis; he was in fact born with latent pyro-kinesis. Furthermore, and greatly worrisome, she clearly read that he had viciously mortally assaulted people, though without his conscious will.

Upon hearing and considering her diagnosis, he was left bewildered by such a notion, that of him possessing a pyro-kinetic inclination of all things. Such an ability within him was without a hint of evidence—even quite the contrary, he mused, when reflecting upon the fire-storm kinesis of the little girl in Firestarter.

“But the experts said that the victims had been frozen to the coldest temperature possible,” Stan emphasized. “So, how can I have a pyro-kinetic ability? If anything, I would’ve thought that I’d actually be the exact opposite of the fire-starting kid in that movie—don’t you think?”

“What do you mean, frozen victims? What are you talking about, Stanley?” she nervously queried of him.

But before he could reply, her eyes had already widened with wisdom. His last words had left her with a facial expression of total revelation, followed by one of fine satisfaction.

When Stan and his mother moved into the apartment complex almost sixteen years before, it didn’t take long for Cynthia to become privately psychically aware of the boy’s dysfunctional rearing and social history. Soon she had attained the knowledge via her ESP that, quite unfortunate for all closely involved, his father had received the same severely flawed rearing, thus distorted thought patterns, during his own childhood in WWII-era Europe. Furthermore, although she knew naught about how far back the dysfunctional rearing reached in Stan’s paternal side of the family tree, she nevertheless did in fact sense that his (long dead) paternal grandfather was strongly telepathic.

All placed together, she’d always feared, it could translate into a young-adult Stan with an active wild-storm telekinetic ability. But what she’d failed to add to the equation was his hopelessly entrenched guilt complex—one involving a large quantity of an emotion very different from, and perhaps even directly opposite to, the rage that was so intrinsically a part of him. The unprecedented result was a total transformation of the fire-energy-conducive infuriated emotions requisite for a pyro-kinetic event to occur.

Combing his fingers through his hair, again did tears trickle down his cheeks.

“Stanley? Stanley, look at me,” Cynthia said, slowly lifting his face up towards hers. “We, together, can work on controlling this … this great burden, which you’re only making much worse by hating yourself for it. I will help you help yourself, dear, no matter what; but first you have to allow me to do so by not at all resisting.”

But Stan was not in any ‘problem solving’ orientated state of mind; he felt that rigidly skeptical.

“I don’t think so,” he replied, slowly freeing his face of her hands. “I’m really drained right now. I’m going to bed for a few hours. I’ll see you later, Cynthia, and I really do appreciate all that you’ve done for me.”

As he left her apartment unit for his, she experienced an awful fright—the worst she’d felt in memory—involving dread and deep sorrow. Furthermore, although convinced that what she sensed had to do with Stan alone, she again failed to discern precisely what concerned her so about him.

Oh Lord, please help Stanley, Cynthia prayed from deep within. He needs you now more than ever; please have your angels watch over him during this terribly tormented time he’s barely enduring. I fear that he’s not willing to suffer it for much longer.

Laying on his bed, he closed his eyes and immediately commenced his typical habitual examination of almost every concept that raced through his weary mind.

I don’t deserve to live in peace after what I’ve done with six lives that weren’t mine to fuck with.

He considered the many cases throughout his life in which he’d committed malicious acts strangely while not feeling any actual malice behind those regretful acts.

How in hell could’ve I done all those terrible things? It’s as though it wasn’t even me doing them.

Then surfaced the worst memories of all, seemingly to haunt him for yet a ten-thousandth time, with the most bitter unfortunately involving a cherished past pet cat. Much beloved by Stan’s family of three, the pet was tragically lost to a coyote attack indirectly due to Stan’s misconduct—or so he firmly believed while unforgivingly flogging his own conscience ever since the terrible loss.

More so, he’d unfailingly frequently give his mind a figurative smack by reminding himself that the lost pet, as a non-human animal, by its very nature was, unlike the intellectually superior human animal, incapable of committing acts of malice for the sake of malice. Thus he felt all the more deserving of psychological self-razing.

To even further worsen his brittle mental condition, he refused to allow himself any relief over his verbal mistreatment of his mother during her last day alive. Her instant death at age fifty-three caused by a drunk driver—life’s greatest blast against him from which he’d never recovered—occurred sixty-nine hours after he’d lost his temper with her, resulting in an albeit very rare hostile verbal exchange.

He then allowed a radical hundred-and-eighty-degree flip-flop concept to overtake him and completely turn around his existential perspective on his seriously counter-productive grudges—indeed, great irrationality that had for so long been to him logical notions: The six dead editors didn’t deserve the cruel cryo-kinetic dish they’d been served; rather, the receiving end of his fury should’ve been reserved but for him alone in lieu of every offense he’d committed (or at least perceived by him as having done so) during his lifetime.

Nor was such punishment deserved by the five school-peer punks who’d tormented him a couple decades prior—all of whom, unwittingly to him, had incidentally all grown to become mature, considerate young adults.

As such, Stan resolutely decided that he, himself should become his next and last focus of his own cryo-kinetic curse.

Deep down he ‘knew’ that he deserved such a terrible fate, for whenever he’d reflect upon his life, he saw how much wrong he’d done and greatly resented himself for it all. Thus, on that afternoon, he reached a deadly dismal zenith.

His unrelenting guilt and rage combined to create an overriding absolute-zero deep-freeze kinetic event in place of the emblazoned event that would’ve otherwise been produced by his congenital pyro-kinesis.

It was at that point of his overpowering emotional inner-conflict that the Stan spike of regret and rage engaged within his subconscious kinetically-enabled mind.

Thus commenced the cryo-kinetic event deep within himself—psychologically as well as physically—and knowing that he was the sole focus target of his own cursed-event creation, he was allowed the greatest yet too brief comfort that he’d enjoyed in memory.

Experiencing a deep chill from within, Stan suffered a piercing pea-sized source of the greatest cold ever originating from the center of his lower abdomen. Soon following at a rate of an inch every dozen seconds was the full vicious effect of excruciating freeze gradually expanding in every direction. Within ninety seconds, the agony of burning-severe frostbite began to dissipate as it was replaced with total dumbing numbness; and momentarily after, however, there was no sensation whatsoever, as though his entire nervous system had shut off.

And I deserve every last morsel, he censured himself. Every single last blast of absolute zero.

With the last of his outermost flesh solidified rock hard, what remained of him was but an extreme-deep-freeze sculpture form of his prior warm-blooded self; with jawbone joints frozen tight and teeth ice-welded together as his stiffened lifeless-grey lips seemed to futilely attempt a last grin.

As with each of his victims, it took about sixty-two hours (during a hot and humid week of late summer) for Stan’s absolutely fully-frozen ice-form to melt, liquefying into a dense, discolored total uselessness absorbed into his mattress, leaving naught solid behind except damp cloth and skeletal remains.

WHEN his written journal (which he maintained daily since his tenth birthday) was discovered and analyzed, the full utilization of its information and insights for the benefit of mental health research and knowledge by Washington State University’s psychology department was officially permitted by his brother.

Although any mention of a parapsychological link to Stan’s formidable struggles during his young adulthood was suppressed, his case was thoroughly studied and the findings were tastefully integrated into a briefly bestselling anthology of condensed biographies involving such troubled souls as himself.

On the other hand, Cynthia steadfastly refused to remain silent on the typically-hushed topic of his psychical ability, specifically his unique form of kinesis; but even so, the vast majority of what she wanted to share with the public at large involving his special talent was never published through any means of media that were taken seriously by mainstream consumers.

Perhaps out of plain frustration, every time she brought up the “scientifically unexplainable borderline absolute zero” extreme-deep-freeze deaths when talking to skeptical media, especially those who implicitly mocked her assertions, she’d always respond with the same rhetorical question.

“Why are so very many well-educated people so incredibly closed minded to parapsychological phenomenon? Maybe they’re simply too smart to understand?”

[Frank G Sterle Jr, originally written in 2014]

Beaten to the Extremist Punch While On His Path to Bliss

(written in 2008)

“YOU know, sometimes I get so infuriated, I’ll fantasize about sending a shoulder-launched rocket to take out The New York Times’ entire editorial department,” Paul confided in his mental health worker, Nicholas. “But I’d only blast the senior and chief copy editors … It really burns me that so many of these people are quite literally ‘opinion-making’—some even openly refer to themselves as such—in the monetary interests of majority shareholders inside large newspaper chains, shareholders who even have other huge fiscal interests in how society’s perspectives on big industry’s misconduct are molded by news-media coverage, or lack thereof.”

Having stated such a large quantity of ‘facts’ in the same breath, Nicholas, swallowing another mouthful of coffee, made a wisecrack remark about Paul’s opinionated “verbal editorials that will someday give you a potent heart attack or stroke.”

With his extensive university education in psychology procuring a warning signal in his head regarding Paul’s anger-management issues, Nicholas was briefly totally speechless and concerned with reason for the first time since taking Paul on as a client three-and-a-half years earlier. In fairness, though, Paul consistently clarified that he would never go through with such an atrocious act, “no matter how corrupt many newspaper editors are.”

Paul has on more than one occasion trusted in Nicolas enough to express that it’s his uniquely ugly brand of unfettered anger and even rage from which he seeks relief and, if need be, even restraint in the form of suicide-by-SWAT-team.

“It’s that kind of inhumanity within my thinking that’s made my life literally unbearable.”

Still, Nicholas made note that he make sure to keep a very close eye on Paul’s state of mind.

“Paul, even if some editors manipulate some readers into supporting certain causes and ideologies, you’re letting it get to you to such a large degree and too easily. Anyone can see how much you’re needlessly letting it mentally eat away at you.”

Without any doubt, Paul was a very angry and suicidal individual. What if he were to snap severely and suddenly enough that he immediately lost all sense of reality and behavioural control, while I failed to act on the warning signs, and many people died as a result? he considered with unease. What if one morning I turned on the news and heard the shocking headline story of horror that occurred as a result of my silence?

It played out in his mind as a hypothetical scenario.

“A disgruntled reader of The New York Times somehow acquired and fired a shoulder-launched rocket from ground level up into The Times’ editorial department at the world renowned newspaper’s headquarters in The New York Times Building.”

The terrorist scenario stuck in Nicholas’s psyche as the hypothetical news-story continued.

“SWAT team members shot and killed the suspect, who refused to obey their commands to halt as he attempted to flee the scene. The dead suspect has been identified as Paul Miller, a long-time resident of East Hampton, Long Island. He is believed to have died instantly after receiving three serious bullet wounds—two in the mid chest, and one in the neck.”

The next thing filling Nicholas’s head was the reverberating blare from the air horn of a large meat truck right behind him; it jolted him to attention as he, deeply lost in disturbing thought, held up vehicles behind him at a green traffic light during the downtown Manhattan rush hour.

“Oh, fuck you, you piece of shit!” he yelled at his rearview mirror with evident anxiety.

Driving on, Nicholas also considered how he, by officially reporting his disturbed client’s enraged fantasies, could inadvertently unjustly have Paul (within the mental health worker community) formally red-flagged as a “potential danger-zone client case.”

Weighting the pros against the cons, Nicholas decided that, for the time being, he’d stick with very closely monitoring Paul’s state of mind; plus, he’d arrange more frequent outreach meetings with Paul than they had been doing.

However, one morning when nobody was paying attention, Paul completely vanished from the local mental health community—although, that small area soon increased to consist of the greater New York City region.

With a full twenty-four hours having fruitlessly passed, his father called police to formally file a ‘missing persons’ report, which initially covered the entire Long Island area though imminently was expanded to include the whole State of New York. With two years having slipped by without any hint as to Paul’s whereabouts, a nationwide ‘missing persons’ status, for Paul was placed within the main U.S. police-forces’ computer grid, with access to all law-enforcement departments across the country. Being in a precarious mental condition, of course, gave his ‘missing’ status somewhat greater urgency—though unofficially likely more for the sake of others’ safety from him than out of concern for Paul’s wellbeing.

Paul was missing for almost five years at the time that Nicholas got promoted at his place of work, which included a more spacious office room with a view in the Manhattan office complex. The following Friday afternoon, just as he began writing client-related reports, he was stunned into numbness by a colleague poking her head into his office doorway to inform him of “what just happened downtown! Some guy blasted a rocket into The New York Times office! It’s on the lunchroom TV set, right now!”

Nicholas felt his knees buckle a bit, for he ‘knew’ who the perpetrator ‘had to be.’ He whisked over to the lunchroom where almost every staffer was staring bug-eyed at the image of The New York Times Building billowing plumes of dark-grey smoke from shattered windows on a level about three floors down from the structure’s roof.

Oh, God! he mentally bellowed. It’s all my fault for not doing or saying something years ago! After so much for so long, Paul’s weary mind must’ve snapped like a dry twig!

“Did they say if police know who did it?” Nicholas mumbled, as though his query was but a guilty-person-and-conscience formality.

“Yeah, they did. It was some mentally ill guy,” replied the same colleague who originally told him about the terrible incident being played on live television.

“Ohh!” he uncontrollably reacted, like a stretched and released thick elastic band. “I mean … ,” he calmed himself before continuing, “do they know his identity, his name?”

“Uuhh … I don’t recall them saying.”

A half-minute lapsed before a TV news reporter spoke.

“Police officials have just revealed that a total of forty-nine New York Times employees are believed to have perished or are severely injured in the very powerful blast and ensuing blaze.”

“Why don’t they name the guy, for fuck sakes!” Nicholas blurted out, due to a notable build-up of anxiety.

“Calm down, Nick,” another colleague said, with others giving him a look of bewilderment. “Why do you need a name? Hey, do you think you may know who the guy is?”

“Ahh … No. I think I’m just a little over-caffeinated, I guess.”

It was at that point that the TV news reporter’s voice again sounded.

“The NYPD liaison officer has just released the name of the deceased suspect, who was shot dead by SWAT team members after ignoring orders to surrender himself to authorities. The dead man has been identified as 44-year-old West Babylon, Long Island resident Saul Anderson, an escapee from a locked-ward at Long Island’s Frownington Institute, which houses indefinitely incarcerated inmates deemed criminally insane by a criminal court. He was the eldest amongst the five children, three brothers and two sisters, of parents Stephen and Audrey of the same name. The couple own and operate a small, state-wide chain of building-supplies stores.”

Nicholas audibly released his held breath with great relief, again receiving some strange glances from colleagues. The tense muscles throughout his body gradually relaxed enough for him to clearly think while maintaining his stare at the TV screen, while inaudibly mumbling to himself, “If Paul was truly capable of such blind fury, he just got beaten to the punch.”

Nicholas read, watched and listened to every bit of news about the rocket-blasting of The New York Times. According to the distraught parents of the deceased Saul, who was three days later officially (though not legally) determined to be the actual perpetrator of the mass slaughter, their son often talked about how he heard distinct commands from God, “for me to cleanse New York of its immorality and especially of its large news-media.”

As questionable as he knew it was for him to feel relief upon learning of Paul’s non-involvement in the vicious attack upon The Times, in which people were nonetheless brutally murdered, it meant that Nicholas was not at all responsible.

But a little over three months later came news that Nicholas so really hoped to never hear. His boss told him everything first thing on the miserably wet and windy Monday morning. The NYPD notified Manhattan Mental Health Center that two routine-patrol police officers had come across the body of Paul Miller. He was discovered in a Bronx back alley—the Bronx being a part of New York State renowned (globally, even) for its shamefully impoverished African-American residents, crumbling and neglected infrastructure, and a disproportionately very large incidence of violent gang activity and serious crime.

Amazingly coincidental, just like the three bullet wounds Saul received courtesy of the SWAT team, Paul received two bullet wounds to his mid-chest and one to his neck. However, Paul also clenched firmly in his right hand an open, six-inch lock-blade jackknife, with all of the blood covering his hand and knife ascertained to be that of two external sources.

The only clue police had as to why Paul was even hanging around (for about a week, it was later said) such an extremely dangerous location came from a sole source “of questionable reliability,” according to the filed police report: “A homeless black male in his early sixties claimed that the victim (Paul) told him that he planned on roaming the violence-infested streets ‘until he was shot dead, and that was that—the guy just walked away.’ But the witness also said the victim emphasized that in no way would he allow himself to be punched or beaten to death without a fight, using his jackknife—his only weapon. The victim said that he was nearly beaten to death as a teen and would not allow such means to end his life. The witness stated that, ‘It was amazing. Even with a good home, three hots and a cot back on Long Island, he clearly, simply had enough of life. He said he was seeking long-lost peace of mind, or something just like that, and really did wish to die.’ In closing-statement remarks, the witness added that the victim mentioned he briefly considered ‘suicide by cop’ as the way for him to leave this world, but he realized the great trauma that he’d likely cause the unfortunate officers whom he’d choose as his executioners.”

(Frank Sterle Jr.)